YoHoHooO... My New BlogSkin

YoHoHooOO.... My new blog skin is up! This time round, I managed to get everything nicely set up in 2-3 hrs time. Wow!! Actually, I was lazy to do any major change to the code, furthermore, I'm a comp-IT idiot. But pretty satisfied with my new blog skin I have. Like the previous background music, so decided to retain it. It's such a nice song! Haha...& I managed to find the mp3, so now I can listen to it any time I want. Heehee~~

Had a good weekend, meeting up with friends, lazing around. Bought a pink Fila sling bag for my friend's bdae. Oh, I like it too! Though I prefer the yellow one, this bdae gal prefers pink colour. Haha... No idea why, think that pink seems to be the "in" colour now. So many friends having pink craze now. Wahaha...

Well, think I'm in a pretty good mood lately. Perhaps after weeks of emotional struggle and uncertainty over my job, and now, I see that everything is more or less settled, I feel more at ease and happier. Glad to receive my confirmation (at last!!). After nearly a year on this job, I would still say that I'm still happy and satisfied, both with the job and my colleagues. I defintely hope to achieve more in time to come!!

Decision Making

A decision-making day. Well, I got the weekend to think about it - to stay or go. But think I've already got an answer in mind. Just thinking over my long term goals and plans... HmM...

Ponder Ponder Ponder: Will I Still be a Research Chemist in a Few Years Time??

Yeah, today I was back to work. Getting sick was no fun - bored of the sleep-eat routine at home, can't go jogging or swimming. Sigh...Lonely... At least at work I'll get to move around, do things, and make myself feel useful.

Had a terrible ear block today, guess it's a result of my runny nose. I could barely hear well, so my colleagues gotta shout into my ears. Haha.. Nothing much to do today, my boss seemed busy at his desk. He looked quite haggard too, have not seen him for the past 4 days, and he seemed to have aged tremendously! Aha, he didn't shave again. Maybe my absence was the cause of it, coz his work piling up. OOpz..

Today's lunch topic was "Our Future". Sounds like a primary school english essay topic. But no, no... It's definitely not. My colleagues talked about how bad it is for women like us (well, I feel that I'm still a gal thou...wahaha) to work as organic chemist. Yes, I do agree that it's a high risk job. High risk, be it our safety or our health. That's definitely a long-term concerns. Working in this line for 10, 20 years is bad for sure. Thou many safety measures have been in place, there's no 100% safety or protection. Sigh... But I would say, as til now, I enjoy what I am doing. I dunno how long this will continue... I often question myself, "So what's next on my life plan?" I have many dreams and plans, but I have reservations as to how far I would go and how many of my dreams and plans I can fulfil.

My fellow colleague hope to move over to admin work in a few years time. Guess then, she'll be married with kids already. Hehehe... Many think that it's not good for women to stay in chemical line for too long... But I don't seem to have much plan to move over to other lines. Lost sheep now.I start to ponder over what my colleagues said.. So what will I be doing few years down the road??

My 1st & Only MC for the Past 1 Year

Was having a cough, flu & fever. My doctor granted me a 1 day MC. Wahaha... slept for the whole day, no Monday blue this week. But, my clean record of zero MC for the past 1 year is now stained... ;-(

On Leave or MC??

Yeah, I'm on leave today! So glad that at last I'm on leave again. But, on second thought, I could have gotten an MC instead, down with flu & cough now... Haiz,what a waste!

Anyway, made plans to go cycling with my sis but this 4ever-lazy-gal said wanna go shopping now. And the amount of time she takes to get herself prepared for the ECP cycle...sigh... from a sunny morning to a dark, cloudy afternoon. Cannot stand it...sigh...Our character going way apart as we grow...

Well, yesterday was a pretty good day, happy coz I got quite a number of compounds to submit for testing. Haha...at last! But sometimes felt that we RAs are just like surrogate mothers, "give birth" to the compounds, and the very moment they are "borned", our boss grabbed it away from us and we have not much access as to what happen to them after that. Haha...sounds pretty bad, as if we are just the production operators...

Yesterday had a great time laughing at my boss (IM SO BAD!!!!). Haha...why? Coz the equipment which he had so much faith in screwed up & really pissed him off. I saw his compound going down the drain... Quite bad,really...Sigh... That's why I refused to use the equipment regardless of how he persuaded me. In this case, I'm smarter than him...Ahhaa

I always feared him coming to talk to me either before lunch hour or before knocking off, he likes doing that! Yesterday he came to me when I wanted to go off again. Sigh... I got to run for my tuition. Sigh, saw him walking towards me when I was drinking water, and ended up wetting my blouse and he laughed like mad. Yupz, funny, told him that my mouth is too small, that's why.. Haha.. Well, I always got problem drinking water from my bottle properly... Why??? Quite embarrassing to be walking around in my wet blouse... Haha...

Alrite, going out soon. Hope it won't take me another month long before I blog again. Cheerioz~~

Eventful (??!!) Week!

This week has been a pretty "eventful" week. When I say eventful in "inverted commas", it definitely points out that it's not something good. Well, well, true enough, most of my recent blog entries did not contain much joyful content. I guess this entry is the worst. I would say that this week has been "exciting", with a series of unfortunate events...

Sigh, sigh... the she & he are off and to think she suspected that I'm the one whom he had consulted with regards to their breakoff... Haiz...Damn upset.. Coz the donkey years of friendship diminishes to pea size when it comes to love or friend. As a friend, I won't do such a thing of course! Be it I like the guy anot, coz I'll be more than happy to welcome a live-happily-ever-after kind of ending for my friends!

Very blur at work this week, stressed, busy, tired... Things seemed to go wrong, sometimes very wrong, and I get really pissed off with myself too! Spilled a portion of "potion-might-be", dissolved another of my "potion-might-be" in DMSO. Everything can only be described by one crude but irreplaceable word - SHITTY!! My pooh-boss's killing me for my stupidity. I guessed he's been shaking his head real hard, and thinking twice, maybe even thrice, about confirming me this coming August. Sigh... Yes, and indeed, this week he has to submit a review report on our progress and performance. Damn! Everything has been pretty well til this week. And why must our review be done this week??!!! But luckily, I had some new findings this week, which kept him busy (wahaha) but happy... coz he can show off to my big boss..

And, and...got some nonsense this week. But well, don't wish to mention much about it, gonna dissolve it in concentrated acid...Wahaha

Oopz... think as a result of my bad mood, I've upset a friend, sounded abit harsh that day. Really apologetic. Already apologised to him,but still felt bad about it. How??

Got a bad news today, an uncle of mine just passed away. Haiz...Life! This is the second death which I've heard within a month. First it was my coll's mum, then now it's my uncle. Yep, and it got my mum so upset. Life is short, chase your dreams!!

A sucky week! Bless me with a better tomorrow!

Saddened....

Yeah! I'm back from my Bangkok trip!!! Well, it was a pretty enjoyable trip, but don't like the weather, it's hotter than S'pore. Furthermore, their air seemed to be full of dust,dirt...YUCKY!! I can see the specks of dust/dirt (so black!!) when I clean my face. Well, on the overall, I didn't buy alot of stuff, mostly are for friends and family. Only 6 tops, 4 bags, 1 sandals, 1 earrings, and a cap for myself. Not alot rite (embarrassed)?? Haha...

Well, I was saddened by the death of my colleague's mum when I got back. It's really so sudden. Just 2 weeks ago, she brought her parents on vacation, and now she's gone. But luckily, my colleague is strong, she has be strong coz her dad needs her now. Being the only child isn't easy. Especially now, she has greater responsiblity to bear.

Yes, we should all treasure the people around us and don't take them for granted. Love them and show your care and concern before it's too late.

Sticky Gluey Friends??!!

One thing that pissed me off recently is the sudden appearance of long, lost friends (??!!) who started talking so nicely, as if they miss me so dearly (BLAH!), but eventually to realise that they have embarked on a sales career!! That's when they will start promoting their products, be it health supplements, which they claimed to be some miracle pills, or insurance. Sigh, that's life! Especially when you start working, you'll see such friends (??!!) contacting you out of the blue. In the first place, they are not even my close friends, just "hi-bye" friends and one of whom I've only met twice. It's really irritating!!! I would say that they have superb pestering skills, lots of patience and ultra thick skin! Haha... That's why I know that I'm not the cut for sales line, as I bear none of the virtues they possess.

Well, well, I'm not that hard-hearted. I do understand that it's their job, as the only way for them to survive is to target friends, and of course, it's usually easier to approach less close friends as even if it's going to sour the relationship, they'll be less concerned since we are no more than just "hi-bye" friends. But, I still feel, to a greater extend, that they quite fackos. Miss me?? Then they would have started contacting me years ago, why wait til now? Maybe they really miss me (which I remain sceptical about!), but the timing is really not right. Missing a not-so-close friend at this point in time doesn't sound convincing enough. Maybe they have exhausted the list of friends in his contact list and I look like the sort of easy target for him. But sorry, it's a NO NO. I'm not easily convinced or swayed, though I may look as if I am.

So anyone out there who's into MLM or selling insurance, you can forget about convincing me. Ahaha...

My Spider-webbed Blog

Yesh! Think my blog is spidered-webbed coz I've sort of abandoned it for > a month. Hmmm... seriously think that my life is boring, not much things to share about & my past posts are mostly on my work, and they were boring. Well, not going to dwell too much into my work this time, as again, there's nothing else but STRESS and tremendous STRESS. My hair greying, going nuts, besides nuts, going berserk maybe. But things are improving towards end of this week, finally more relaxed and calmer. Without my boss around, work seemed even more hectic and stressful.

Well, other than work, I've been feeling lousy these days. Ermm...not pms, but haiz, lotz of problems, things to think through, really hate it. This May is quite a tough month for me, really can't wait for my Bangkok trip!!!

Haha...but but, something to be happy about this month too. Happy for my dear friend. Maybe a tough decision for her, but I'm more than happy to kick her off the shelf and off my previleged club.

For my dear friend who may be reading my blog, here's for you:

Believe in yourself, ok? Don't be fickled-minded lar. Don't shift the pressure to me, you should know that I'm hopeless... Haha..

So I'm an Iced Coffee....

You Are an Iced Coffee You're always on the go... so much so that you can't stop to drink warm coffee Iced coffee is the perfect energy boost for your crazy, hectic life And truth be told, you like your life to be on full throttle You stack activities constantly, so that you never have to slow down or be bored. Hmmm....think it's true to some extent... I can't slow down...wahaha

A Strange, Weird, Funny Encounter

Another workless day again. Felt so useless these 2 days, got nothing to do. SIGH!!!! Why??? My new "pet" has arrived but the person, simply missed out the consumables which I need, so I could not do any work at all. It's not productive!!! Haha...pretty funny, think my boss felt that I have been under quite a bit of stress last week, he want me to take things easy these 2 days. But, but... I have finished writing my labbook, clearing the mess on my desk, wiping my workspace, bumming around... Well, really really bored...soooOOOO bored you know?? I'm really a born workaholic. I can't stop working! My colleagues are so envy of me, but I really don't enjoy a minute of it. It's making me feel so useless and worthless...sigh...

Nothing else better to do, I started working on my presentation slides. Hey, my presentation is still a month away, so everyone's laughing at my kiasuness again...Wahaha...

Had a pretty funny encounter just now, as I was on my way home from tuition. As I was walking out of the carpark of my student's condo, a cabbie offered to give me a life. Quite friendly of him to offer, but i turned him down. Well well, think i was pretty paranoid, no idea of his intention, and since I was just a street away from my home, I could jolly well walk home. Come to think about it, it's so strange, rite??

In a Month's Time...

Wah, today my partner did her project presentation. It was fabulous. She spoke with much confidence and grace and I'm really impressed. Hmmm...in a month's time, it's gonna be my turn. Beginning to feel stressed and nervous already. Hope I'll be just as good, if not better... ;-)

Just worried that I'll freak out or get shoot with tough questions... Gotta start working on it real soon...

Sigh, I've been put into the organising committee for this year's teambuilding. Don't know whether I should be happy or worried. With this additional task (besides my hectic work project), I wonder when can I take a good long break... Haiz...

Anyway, it's really not an easy task to organise a teambuilding programme for the company. With such a wide age range, it's difficult to organise activities which suit all age groups as well as different interest groups. The present plan is to go on some OBS sort of adventure programme in Malaysia. Well, I kinda rejoiced at the idea since I've never been on any OBS programs. But sadly, I've received many bad comments and criticism from fellow colleagues who kinda jeered at the idea. Sigh, most of them not spontaneous about it, complained about the long bus ride of 8 hours, which I really understand. But, personally, I look forward to such travels, with my colleagues, the fun! But guess not everyone thinks the same way as I do as 1. It's my 1st job, so it's the 1st time I'm going on such company retreat. 2. I'm the youngest in my unit, so I supposed I'm the most energetic! Ahahaha.... 3. I'm 1 of the organisers, so I gotta be "on"?!?! 4. I love such adventure stuff.

Ok, fine, I should not be so selfish, I should think about and consider how the rest feels about it too. I don't want everyone to be dragging themselves there, when we are supposed to let our hair down and have fun. I'll gather their feedback. Well, it' already tough to organise activities for same age group, like my experience back in those days as harmo president... sigh...

It's even tougher now I know. Just hope we wont end up in Sentosa or Pulau Ubin...ahaha....

Chemistry is just like Cooking....

"Chemistry is just like cooking. With the right ingredients and conditions, you will be able to make fantastic dishes. The same applies to life!!!"

Hmmm.... the above line is by.... ME, but it's in fact quoted from a really fantastic Chemist whom I've met today. Wow, he's really a very experienced chemist, even a missing methyl group can't escape from his eyes. I'm really very impressed with him. He's impressed with our performance & hardwork thus far, kept saying that we've been "cooking" hard...Hehehe...

Well, I really like the lines and I've always associate chemical reactions with cooking, just like him wahaha... Guess great minds think alike, maybe I've the potential to be such a fantastic chemist like him too!! Bluahh....

But I really think that the same principle applies in life. With the right things happening or meeting the right people at the appropriate time, things gonna work great, don't they? And for a relationship too... But I've yet found my ingredients and ideal conditions.... Haha.... ;p

Makan Challenge???

Today, I had a more than usual Saturday. I have to wake up early in the morning just like my usual work days. Ermm... no worries, not heading for work. I've agreed to join my dear friend in youth activity called "Makan Challenge". YOUTH??? U must be wondering how come I'm still considered as a youth...Haha... Hey, youth = 25 years old & below... So I'm safely under this category... Hehe... on the upper end of the age range though...

The weather did not turned out as expected, it rained before the challenge began. But it's in fact a good sign that it's starting to rain again!! The weather is getting back to normal I hope. Well, the heat these days is killing me... Thank god, we were lucky enough that the rain stopped just before the programme commenced, though still drizzling... But it was good enough to start...

We had a "good" time running from Youth park to Dobby Ghaut, then to Orchard & back to Dobby Ghaut... Well, it didn't just ended there... We had these sort of crazy runs for a couple of times & it's driving my legs mad... PLUS, I was soaked with a mixture of rain water & sweat... YUCKS... Seriously, I stinked & it's really disgusting!!! But what a great workout I had on a Saturday morning!!

What's more disgusting is that you know what sort of great delicacies we had for the so-called Makan Challenge? Yeah, it's really "delicacies"....things like chilli, bittergourd, lime, apple, sour plum, tomato, and worst of all, raw beansprout!!! Now wonder my friend's bf got diarrhoea...Haha...

Well, our team didn't do too badly, at least we came in sixth among the 20 teams...though we've missed the first 4 prizes (1st prize was a bluetooth MP3, not ipod, as previously claimed by my dear friend...) we managed to get a consolation prize!!! Ermm...well, it's a pathetic pilot pen & pencil set...(pretty sad case)...

Had a gd time with another dear at Essential Brew restaurant in the evening... A pretty nice place to sit & laze around on weekends... Highly recommended!!!

Happy CNY!!!

Happy CNY, folks!! Ermm.. Sorry, my greetings seem to come pretty late, today is already the third day of Chinese New Year. Well well, it's better to be late than never, isn't it? Haha...

Well, had a good CNY this year, lotz of visitings from my relatives, ermm...that means I've rotted at home for the last 2 days!!! Sigh... Made my body ached, but recovered after a morning swim today...Hehe~~ So fulfilling... Well, have not been into the pool for almost 2 weeks, ever since i fell sick... Now i'm almost back to normal again... ;-)

Last 2 days, we had visits from my aunts & cousins... Really nice to see my dearest cousins yesterday. Well, we have not been doing such visits for a couple of years, so happy to have them over at my place yesterday... Hehe...

Well, still having a bit of cough...so gotta keep away from the CNY goodies... Haiz... (Though I did eat a bit....Hahah.... SHHHhh...)

Yeah, a good CNY break, but gonna be back at work on Monday... V'dae somemore....Sigh....

CNY Steamboat Dinner - Round 1

Today I have attended a whole day analytical training... So tiring... Think my medicine made me drowsy, though I have gave the cough mixture a skip today... Think yesterday's dose was still taking effect...For so long? I wonder too...

This morning felt pretty drowsy on the train, wanted to sleep, but saw a pregnant woman who had no place to sit.. I felt bad not to give up my seat to her... Think that she needed the seat more than I did... So I tried to sleep while standing...but of course that's not possible...though I dozed off quite a couple times while standing...haha...

The analytical training was a good one i think, but I really felt too sleepy to concentrate...dozed off at times again... ;

After a day of training, I saw a stack of papers on my workbench..Good guess! It's my boss who left me the stuff... Work!! He threw me 2 reactions for tomorrow... ;-( It's Friday tomorrow...but he wants me to clear as many reactions as possible before I go on my leave next week...So sad...Can't he see that I'm sick? Not even a word of concern from him.... He said that he hoped the reactions work tomorrow so that he'll have a good weekend... So do I... I want a good Friday & weekend too.... ;-(

Never mind about that, I'll be on leave soon...hehe~~ After work, we went Coca restaurant for steamboat! It was fun!! I admit that I was lousy...ate so little, no appetite mah...still feeling sick.... sigh... But it's really an enjoyable dinner.... ;p

There's going to be another round of steamboat tomorrow... ;-)

So Malu!!!

Yesterday something terrible happened. Made me really malu... But I don't wish to go into the details of that incident. Think my sis is right, I still don't know how to take care of myself... :-( Now I'm losing my voice...Haha...sexy voice now... ;p


Anyway, these week should be pretty relaxed at work. I attended a pharmaceutical seminar these 2 days. Well, some parts were pretty interesting but I just can't stand sitting from 9am -5.30pm! Think that's making me sick...


Well, hopefully tomorrow we'll be able to go on a tour to Jurong Island... Hope that the MPs coming to visit us in the afternoon instead.. Well, I have yet been to JI, so this is a good chance to go...


Another full day training on Thursday, which means that for this week, I just have to work on Friday, then next week I'll be on leave!! Hooray!!!

OTs & OTs....

Oh manz.... I've been doing OTs these few days, missed my swim again... ;-(

Well, so nice to see my big boss visiting us again this morning. He came over to chat with my colleague & I. Kinda sweet, he apologised for not visiting us so often these days. Well, we understand how busy he is. Besides, now we got a new boss, guess he feels that he should let our new boss take charge instead. But he's really a charismatic guy. A really nice gentleman. Oopz...no other meanings attached, my colleague felt the same way too, coz he's really a good boss. ;-)

As for new boss....Haiz... think he's a chain smoker. Always come into the lab with strong cigarette smell. YUCKS!! But no choice, he's my boss, there's nothing much I can do about it. Maybe should buy him some breath freshener..Heheh.. My write-ups are piling...coz everyday I gotta run so many reactions to satisfy my new boss...no time to clear my paperwork... & that's y i gotta stay late these days... Yet he kept telling me that it's late, I should go home. Well, if he gives me less reactions, I'll be able to go home early,rite? Sigh...Well, be positive, lotz to learn from him... ;p

Long Waited Long Weekends!!!

It's has been 2 weeks since I last blog..Haha..in other words, I have not been practising my driving skills for 2 weeks already! Well, still waiting for my driving license to arrive... ;-)

Arghh....a hectic week, though still not getting the full blown of it. But guess it'll be pretty soon!!! Sigh...

My new boss just came in this week, but he's already keeping us busy, & well, he messed up my work, my reaction!?!!Sob sob... But luckily, I was still able to recover my stuff, though the yield was poorer than expected. Simply feel that he's too impatient, yupz...just got his keyword today -- SPEED!!! Everything he talks about is speed, speed & speed. Just because he's too impatient to wait, he caused me to screw up my stuff. In the end, a task which can be completed in less than a day took me 3 days to finish!! Sigh, isn't it much worse this way? It's only 4 days since he came & we have slaved & shagged like hell...Hope it's not going to be a long term thing... :-(

He wants things to be done in his way, sigh...so MCP, so egoistic.. & he has been monitoring us so so closely...every hour a spotcheck! Alemak!!! Sleepless nites, now my mind all about work...However, I should be thankful that he has been teaching us quite alot of stuff, really a good opportunity to learn from him.

Yupz, gotta be more optimistic,cheer up, shall enjoy my long weekends before Monday again.... ;-p

A Partial Tick off my Wishlist Item 1 =>

Today is a day of "double happiness"! The first & the best present for me in 2005 is...I GOT MY DRIVING LICENCE!!! At last,today was my second attempt on the driving circuit and I've made it! But I'm just able to put a partial tick for that, coz I don't have a car to go on a spin.... =(

I'm really so happy when the tester announced "passed" as he handed me the checklist. Well, I really screwed it up the 1st time round coz I was too nervous then, glad things turned out well today... =)

Well, that's the first happy thing today. I'm also glad that at last I managed to get into the pool this afternoon. It has been weeks since I last swam due to the bad weather...rainy rainy days.... I'm now energised!

Had a good catch up with my ex-sup & ex-colleagues in the evenings...So nice to see them again...Especially my sup, haven't seen her for a year....Heheh~~ Such a great day today...Don't think i can sleep tonite...BUT, tomorrow still gotta work... :(

Hope that things will run well for the rest of the year...Don't be as unlucky as my friend....Hahah...