Vesak Day!

Happy Vesak Day to all Buddhists! As for me, my family & I don't celebrate Vesak Day. But still, as a typical working adult, I looked forward to this day, because it's a public holiday. Haha...

Yah, pretty exhausted by work, and I need a short escape from all the stress. Managed to clear my half a day of time off yesterday afternoon. Went for my dental appointment & then back home to sleep. Lately I've been feeling tired easily. Getting old already?! Hmm... Anyway, it was nice to spend my weekday afternoon relaxing at home, such a luxury! Haha.. I also managed to bug my mum and get her to cook dinner for me yesterday. Whahaha...so bad of me to bully her. Of course not lah! I prepared the dinner together with her, had a really good time cooking and eating together. Heez~~ Yah, then I realised that it's been quite long since I last prepare a meal together with her. Well, I used to be her regular 'kitchen assistant' when I was still schooling, but it became less often after I started work & after she started to help out at my dad's stall. Heez...a simple dinner but I'm very happy! :) Hope we can do it more often.

After dinner I was out for Mambo nite! Yah, since today is a PH, I do not have to get up early for work, so could afford a late nite. Haha... But then, everyone else thought likewise. In the end, Zouk was fully packed with people, and I really mean FULLY PACKED. OMG! It was really scary. More packed than Suntec today (due to the PC Show) and I almost died in there while trying to squeeze out from the place. Pretty boring music too. Sigh... it was really disappointing! Looked forward to dance abit & relieve my stress but didn't even manage to step onto the dance floor coz it was too packed already. But luckily I've already had a "good dance" on Tue nite during the Step I class. Backtrack a little, the Step I class was so fun though LLT found it a killer! Haha... Good for you to attend to train up on your memory skills, Mr STM. Haha..

Today we have spent a good 2 hours in gym for the killer combat class. Haha...our sweat was just flying all over the places! We've been informed to dress up in orange (or bring an orange fruit to class - erhh... CNY meh? haha). Some of the regulars were pretty sporting to dress up in orange attire. Of course not for us. Reason being no orange gym gear! Haha..
Did some shopping after gym before meeting up with GY for PC Show. Bought something expensive. Abit heartpain though it's not my money. But really thanks for the present. Heez...

Tmr still gotta work before it's weekend again. Sigh...

Work is driving me NUTS!

ArghhhHH... Past week I've been feeling lousy at work. Or truthfully, I should say since last year, I've not been working on any rewarding chemistry projects, it's pretty a demoralising feeling, and some times it really sucked. Sigh... Now, a year later, things have improved a little but I still feel that what I've been doing is not really what I'm looking for. Really dread going back to work tomorrow again, still gotta face the same old problems, which I really dunno when I can get them solved. Looks like my boss is not optimistic about the current project as well, I can really sense his frustrations whenever he talked to us about the project. Furthermore, I think that the unexplainable results that I'm getting are driving him mad as well. I felt frustrated too, really feel that I'm so useless & stupid sometimes. Sigh... has anything gone wrong? Am I not suited for this field? I just feel that I'm losing the zest and motivation in research these days. I kept asking myself, " Is it time to move on to something else already?"

But again & again, I keep telling myself, "Failure is part & parcel of life. In R&D, it's an even BIGGER part!" Yes, of course, I don't wish to give up so easily, I still hope to give myself a little more time in R&D, and to think clearly my next move. I hope I'll still be able to hang on, hang on...

I think now I've adopted a good way to release all my stress. That's gym workout! Haha... Especially during combat class, all the work stress I have is released through those punches and kicks. Ahahaha...

Anyway, my weekend has been good. Yah, happy that I always have good weekends and that really drives me to work so that the next weekend will come soon. Heez~~ Met up with WS & BZ again yesterday. This time round brought them to Clarity Cafe. Great to hear that WS has some plans already and is already executing them. Hope I'll be able to execute my plans soon. Haha...

My Weekend!

This week didn't do much things other than work. Even for gym, I only attended 2 classes yesterday for this entire week. Sigh.. But hope that me gym regime will resume some time next week after my gym buddy is back. Time to exercise again, dude! Haha~~

No gym after work. So what have I been doing then? Well, then I became a good gal & went home early to have dinner with my mum (if not she'll complain). Haha~~ But then, still managed to catch the movie '28 weeks later' with LLT on Thursday evening. Haha... somehow, I was in for some scares that day, wanna get some adrenaline rush (hmm..probably lack of exercise this week, so I missed the heart-racing feeling. Haha) Asked to choose between a comedy, 'Blades of Glory', and a horror show, I picked the latter. Wahaha.... Well, I think the show was more bloody than scary, so I still didn't managed to get the scares I've hoped for. Haha

At last I managed to do some exercise on Sat afternoon before meeting some of my JC classmates for dinner at Central. So happy to see Tricia, Yimin & Wanen! I think we last meet up some 1 1/2 years ago. Everyone still looks good now! We managed to get the outdoor seats of the restaurant which has a good view of clarke quay. It's really nice to catch up with them again. Looks like everyone is still pretty happy in their field. It's interesting to realise that 4 of us are in pretty different fields - IT, audit, building & real estate and science (me!). Had a good time listening to the little stories happened at their work. This world is so full of funny people. Haha.. Wanen will be organising the next gathering but hope that it's not going to be 1 1/2 years later.

Today I've decided to give gym a miss & bring my laptop out to town for a "walk". Haha..well, wanted to try out the wireless SG thingy but no idea why, just couldn't get it properly hooked up to the network. Sigh... Luckily I brought my Turkey travel guide along to read. Heez~~ Saw a number of nice & cool places in the guide (especially the beach!), hope I'll get to go.

Another full week of work, then the week after will be Vesak Day PH! Haha~~ What's more, I'm going for MayDay's concert that weekend. So excited!!

What Am I good at?

Today is yet another busy day (since when am I not busy? haha). Yah, after "wasting" my previous week on NMR training, I need to clear a lot of my experiments ASAP. I wanted to finish up as much as I can by today, even at the expense of skipping/ a short-and-quick lunch today so that I'll have sufficient work to deliver to Bossy during the afternoon meeting. But in the end, the meeting was cancelled coz we ended up looking high & low for a bottle of substance. Stupid! That bottle of thingy kinda of "gone missing" since last July, but Bossy only started looking for it now. We searched the entire lab, in every possible corner, but still didn't manage to find it. Come to the question, "So whose fault is it?" Just because I'm the last person to enter the info into the inventory list, I am said to be responsible. But the thing is, more often than not, Bossy doesn't give clear instructions as to how much of the substance is to be submitted and to whoever. I feel that there is a high chance that he just took away the bottle from my work bench and pass to some other parties without even informing me. Yet now he's questioning me on what happened to the bottle. I doubt anyone would want to steal that bottle of chemical, & I wouldn't swallow it (unless I wanna die soon, it's toxic!) & I not the blur sort who'll be sotong enough to dump it away. I'm glad that I was firm & confident with myself that I was not the last person to handle that bottle. After an afternoon of hoo-ha, the mystery was finally resolved. The bottle was sleeping in the freezer in another department! And the only person who comes in close contact with the department is definitely not us (associates are just test-tube washer, remember? Haha), it's none other than Bossy. In other words, the only way the bottle got to that department must be through Bossy. Well, I'm not trying to push the blame to him or anyone. But sometimes, really feel that he's just not organized and meticulous enough. He expects us to take care of every little detail for him, but the thing is, he's in the front line but we are not. There's many things which we are not aware of what's going on so how are we going to take note of the details for him? Sigh… Anyway, glad that the bottle has been located.

I start to ponder again, so what am I good at? Have I been a good associate so far? Sometimes I just feel that I haven't been doing a good job. Well, not because of this incident which makes me feel this way. In terms of technical knowledge, I know I don't have enough. Organic chemistry is such a diverse area! In terms of lab skills, are mine good enough? Sometimes just feel that I suck at everything. Life don't suck but I guess I suck. Haha!! Suddenly my brain is being flushed with negative thoughts. I'm fine, no worries. Just thinking of what skills I can pick up to make myself more marketable? Hmmm…

Weekends!

Weekend just kinda of sucks for some reasons. Nevertheless, I still made my way to the gym yesterday afternoon for pump & combat classes. Felt better after a good sweat-out and now my muscles are still aching. I met up with Noorul after that for revision. Well, you didn’t make me puke blood, but you almost made me fainted. Haha~~ Hope the session was useful for you!

Went home after that for Mothers’ Day celebration though it was just a simple affair at home. It was so sweet of my bro to get Mama a bouquet of pink carnations. Although Mama kept nagging at him for spending the $$ unnecessarily, I can see that she was really happy to receive the flowers. Heez~~ We bugged Mama for the entire evening to decide on what to have for dinner, in the end what she requested for? Just a fillet-O-fish! Haha…My Mama is so cute & she is so easily satisfied!! But in the end I ate nothing due to some problems. Glad that the issues have been resolved now. :)

Today I went to ‘T-One Steamboat’ located at Beach Rd with some colls after work. Food was good and the spicy stemboat pot was nice but it was a killer. Now I’m still suffering from stomach discomfort, OMG! I can sort of feel a layer of chili oil floating in my stomach. Eeee…

Stressful Week

This week has been a busy week. A week packed with in-house NMR training and we didn’t even have time for lunch. In case you have no idea of what’s NMR, I’ll talk briefly about it. Basically NMR stands for ‘Nuclear Magnetic Resonance’. To put it simply, it is an analytical technique used for the determination of the structure of a substance. So my training was on the use of the new software to operate the powerful yet complex instrument. Lots of mathematical & physics stuff involved in this training, which totally drove me crazy! My brain was congested coz there’s so much things to learn and there so much expectations from us. OMG!! Thank goodness, there’s LPP & RH in the training as well. Though the 3 of us are equally blurred & stressed, we still have a good time learning together. We were also lucky that the trainer was very patient with us. Heez~~ But sitting in the NMR room for the entire day doesn’t feel good at all, half the time I felt like dozing off. It makes me realize again that I’m not the cut for desk-bound job. Wonder how many cups of coffee I’ll need then. Haha~~ I really miss labwork for the past week!

I finally got to meet up with Rain on Thursday. So sorry about it, gal. Last min OT & gotta delay our meeting time and change our meeting location as well. Yah, not only that, our supposedly dinner cum KTV session was simplified to just a dinner at CWP. Sorry about the delay for your BDay present too. Will get it soon, ok? Nevertheless, I was happy to meet up with you even though it was a short meetup at CWP for dinner & ice cream followed by chit-chatting over at your house. Heez… And of course, thanks for the new pot of plant you got for me from Taiwan. Just in time to replace the poor dying cactus you got me the previous time. Haha~~ Thanks a lot, gal! :)

Went back to work for half a day today. So I miss one of my favourite - Sat's gym classes! But anyway, now I've got half a day of time-off to clear. Thinking of when to clear it. Haha~~ Managed to pick up a few travel guides from the library before heading home. Yeah, gotta read up & start preparing for my Turkey trip! In the evening, I met up with PY, XY & WL for dinner to celebrate XY's BDay. Happy Birthday to XY! Nice meetup, we did lots of shopping (but I'm the only one who went home empty-handed! haha), makaning & chit-chatting. Still, all that I've done didn't improve my moodiness. Sigh... Why? Why?

A Moody Weekend

Hmm...dunno for what reason I felt a little moody these few days (not pms la! haha). Irregardless of what I do, it just didn't make me feel better. Felt lazy, didn't even feel like going for my gym classes. That's so not me! Afterall, I still attended the classes yesterday & today, though I opted to do some equipments (view at Vivo PF is great!) instead of combat today. Glad that I did, felt a little much better after some sweating. Heez~~

Glad that I had some good company this weekend! Met up my GF for breakfast (instead of a jog. GF's so lazy leh. Haha!!) yesterday. Had a good chat though it was a short meetup. Yesterday's afternoon was spent gyming alone (gym class looked alot less packed than usual as well) before meeting WK for late afternoon tea & some shopping. Heez~~ No idea why. I felt quite tired yesterday & slept soon after I got home. Piggy me! Haha

This morning I got up not feeling much better. Sigh... no idea what's the cause of all this moodiness. Just felt sian somehow & I couldn't explain why. Poor LLT gotta bear with my sian face today. So poor thing. Haha~~ Caught the movie 'Spiderman 3' in 4K digital version. It was good! Crystal clear man! The show was nice as well, an exciting show, so I didn't fall asleep as well. Or maybe bcoz I've already slept alot last nite? Haha~~

Weekend has passed again. Tmr onwards gonna be stuck in a training. Hope it'll be a good one.

Back to Blog!

Hey folks! It's been a good 2 wks plus since my last post. Heez... I've been feeling lazy & slacky to update my blog. Running out of things to blog too. Life's getting abit of routined. But well, after a good short trip to Penang, I'm recharged again (or at least for the moment. Heez) and here I am, back to blog! Haha!!

Probably a brief update of what I've been doing for the past 2+ weeks. Basically I was still working as per normal, but probably in the midst of thinking if I'm hit by mid-twenties crisis also. Haha!! Mid-twenties crisis? So what is it about? At least to me, it's about feeling stagnant in my present job, which I've already been in for 2.5 years. Just some thoughts about whether to change job, where to move on to, what to do next (still work or further studies?). Afterall, being in my mid-twenties (an adult already & no longer a kid!), there's also alot of other factors to consider when making any decision.

Of course, before I make any next move I still want myself to enjoy what I'm doing at the moment and I decided that a short break should do me good. And yes, it did. Thanks to GY for suggesting this Penang trip & of course Elin for hosting, although she was quite sick then & didn't really spend much time with us. It was a really relaxed trip, no rush to anywhere or to do anything. So although GY & I spent most of the time walking along the beach deciding what to do next, I think we just had as much fun nuaing, enjoying the sea breeze but of course we did venture out to explore the places & the good food as well. Heez... GY's going over to US in 2 months' time. I gonna miss her & definitely I'll miss travelling with her. Ok, will remember our promise to go travelling again when u return 1.5 years later, ok? All the best to you!! :) Hope you are less blur and sotong by then. Haha~~

I think I've been sleeping too much since my Penang trip. I feel sleepy quite easily ever since then. Haha!! Getting piggier already, OMG!

Next on my travelling list - Turkey, Istanbul!