Saturday, April 15, 2006

Re-evaluating Life...

The past few days have been pretty tiring, not just for me but for my entire family as we have to travel between AMK and Tampines to attend my aunt's wake. The entire religious procession was simple but everyone there was heavyhearted. I can't help but to think about what happens after death. Yup, probably a morbid topic to many, but it's definitely an unavoidable part of life that each of us got to go through, at least and at most once, isn't it? I even told my sis that I wonder how a person feel at the moment before he/she passes away, will the person feel anything after death? But then, I know that no one really has an answer for that since it's not possible for a dead to become alive again, or at least with the present level of medical technology.

How about all the religious procession then? Does it really help the dead? No one has the answer again, I guess. Anyway, I think this is the best that the livings can do for the dead, at least according to chinese beliefs, it helps to peace the soul.

Having to come so close to a funeral procession again (the last one which I really attended was my gandma's funeral, some 14 years ago!) serves as a wake-up call for me and my family that strong family bonds and having quality family time are really important. It'll be too late if you only realise it after the person is gone.

In the last few days, I've noted how much my aunts and uncles have aged these years. And yup, my parents too. Especially my mama. She has worked so hard to keep the family tidy and organised (not my room thou! Hhaa...But I only have myself & sis to blame ;( )and to help out at my dad's stall. I can see wrinkles and tiredness on her face ;'( I would want my family, especially my parents, to be happier and stress-free!

Monday, April 10, 2006

Part of Life!

I've been telling people that this is a bad year, I mean it's a bad year for me. At least it's true for the last few months! Really 范了太岁?

First, it started off with a fever and bad cough during Chinese New Year, and it lasted for quite a while. Next suay thing which I can remember was probably my Taipei trip. A really nice trip except the part where I got rashes. Til now I'm still clueless as to which bug bite me! The rashes then went off and came back again after I stopped taking my medicine. ArghHH...but luckily it went off *for good, I hope!* after Mama made me some herbal tea. Mama's always the best doctor! haha~~

Still recovering from the shock that I've gotten last nite. My favourite aunt has just passed away last nite. Really sad, but I didn't cry. Can't remember when was the last time I cried, probably quite a while ago. My aunt's a very nice and friendly person. In fact, she had helped my family tremendously some years ago when my dad met with an accident. She would come over to my place to visit my dad as well as bring my dad to hospital for checkups together with my mum when she stayed in the east while we stay in the north. Unfortunately, the killer cervix cancer has taken her life. I've yet attended her wake, but I guess my tears will flow when I go.

Her departure was really sudden. Though I knew of her illness quite some time ago, I've also heard from my parents that her conditions had improved. Didn't know that it deteriorated again. Sigh.. Life's so unpredictable. Treasure your love ones, treat them well, show your love for them before it's too late. Papa's birthday's on this weekend. I really hope that he'll feel better by then. ;-)