I'm really on MC!!

Sigh... I thought that I could have survived the day after paying a visit to the lousy doc yest nite but eventually, I'm still on MC today! Yah, should have expected that, since she's a lousy doc. Haha~~ Anyway, this morning nearly fainted again! Felt giddy when I was brushing my teeth but luckily mama was ard. Phew!! Almost went to hospital's A&E, but in the end I felt much better, so waited to see the GP instead. So scary!! I thought I'm going to die you know? I'm barely 24 years old leh, if die liao, how? Sigh..probably I'll start haunting my family and friends to fulfil my wishes then. Wahaha

Anyway, this doc definitely gave a better diagnosis than the CMI one yesterday. Felt better after taking his med, thou my stomach is still churning and my appetite haven quite improved. But at least my rashes are gone! Haha...at last!! =) Basically I've been sleeping and sleeping for the entire day. Now I feel like sleeping again...zzzZZZ

I wonder how much work would have accumulated when I return to office tmr. ArgghHH!! And boss's gone tmr! So envious of him. He's going to Sabah for diving!

Anyway, got the following from Krystal's blog, it's about December babies =)

DECEMBER BABY

This straight-up means your the most good-looking person possible...better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand.
Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind.

Hmm...thos in bold & italic seem quite valid for me leh. Hhaha...

What happened to Me?

Well, after a gd clarification, the misunderstanding has been cleared. I'm not the unreasonable sort, I listen to explanation, ok? Hahaa

Today hasn't been a really good day for me. Early in the morning I saw that my rashes had worsened. OMG! It's scarring my neck and arms. Sigh... Must be my itchy hands which scratched the rashes in the middle of the nite again. =( Should have tied them up! Haha... Also, I have been constipating for at least a couple of days already (despite I've ate lots of bananas alr!)and today it appeared worse. For the entire day, I felt pretty bloated in my stomach and really had no appetite during lunch (I thought it was due to yest's dinner treat from Ade. Haha... Anyway, thanks alot for the treat! Next time will be my turn when I get my bonus =)

This bloatedness continued for the entire afternoon, in fact I felt that it worsened. Sigh...in the end, something really happened on my train ride home. I almost fainted! It was kinda scary coz I did collapse once on the mrt platform and it was really embarassing too. No idea what exactly happened. I just felt very suffocated on the train and started having headache. The next moment I felt pretty giddy and almost black out. Really scary leh, coz I was all alone. Luckily I got better after resting for a while and sucking some sweets. PHEW~~

Yah, seen a ask-me-what-medicine-I-want doc. Isn't she supposed to prescribed med for me? I think I can be the doc instead! No clear diagnosis given somemore! What kind of doc is she? Sigh...that's y I never trust panel doc..

Hope that my rashes & constipation will clear real soon!!!


P.S. 1. Ade, your "QC" has passed lah, no worries. Heez... Felt really honoured that you entrusted me with this "QC" task. Haha...btw, do I have the motherly look or something? Anyway, trust yourself, trust ur choice =) Thanks for ur treat again!

P.S. 2. To my heartbroken frd, hope ur problems get resolved by now. Yes, trust is to be earned, not given. Let him know that =p

A Pissed Weekend

Last weekend was a bad one. First, my rashes worsened and secondly, a friend made me quite pissed off with him. And in fact, the more I think of it, the more pissed off I felt. OMG! I gotta put a stop to this "pissiness"! :S

Well, we have agreed to take up the blading lessons together in the first place and I have always tried my best to accommodate to all your timings so that we all can attend the class together. To think that you can't even accommodate me for this once and even asked me to attend the class on my own? Sigh... I'm really sad and disappointed with you. I know that you are under alot of stress at the moment, but do these give u reasons to treat a friend like this? So eventually I attended the Sunday's class ALONE and I guess u don't even care about it. Sadz... =(

Sometimes, I really wonder if I have given in too much to my friends already and probably I've been taken for granted already. Whatever my friends want to do, I'll do with them coz I feel that when they are happy, I'm happy too. But at the end of the day, how many really attend to my needs and wants? Sigh...

After 2 days of MC...

After 2 days of MC, I'm finally back to work today! Although my neck is still red & a little swollen + itchy, it's already alot better compared to the last 2 days. I could see my double chin the last 2 days! Hahaha
Well, after I've successfully completed the previous proj, the results also showed that the proj which I've worked on for the past 2 years is going to end up in "premature death". A little disappointed but afterall, it's just part & parcel of research, isn't it? So just have to pack up & move on =) Feeling so lazy after 2 days of MC but then still gotta push myself a little more to meet the deadline which is next Tuesday!

Today's lunch was "very entertaining". Haha...I just couldn't stop laughing bcoz ... ... Ahaha...Well, don't think I'll go into the details here coz it's some pretty stupid stuff. =p

Well, back-track a little to how I've spent my last 2 days of MC. Besides trying to scratch & hoping to ease the itch, I've been sleeping and sleeping on Monday. Ahaha... can u believe that I actually took 3 naps that afternoon when my medicine won't cause any drowsiness? Sleep for 2-3hrs, got up for 1/2hr, then back to sleep again! So piggy, rite? I realised that the more I sleep, the more tired I feel. But it's definitely a luxury to be able to laze all day in my bed on a Monday afternoon.

Yesterday was on MC too, but didn't really laze at home coz it'll be very boring to sleep all day long! Luckily LLT was on leave. Haha..so there's someone to accompany me to go out on a weekday afternoon! We met up for lunch, and caught the show 'The Prestige' after that. The show was great! I quite like the story & the flow of the show was gd too. But then, Hugh Jackman isn't as attractive as he is in the 'Scoop' as he lacks his charming, killer smile in this show. Haha~~ But he's still looks very cool. Did abit of shopping after the show, where i bought an Adidas running shorts while LLT bought his shirt. Haha..so happy that the shorts is subsidised my sis. Heez.. coz it's such a splurge to spend 30+ bucks on a pair of running shorts. Thanks sis!! =) Saw quite a couple of things that I need & wanna buy. But hmm...shall wait til month end then. Getting so broke... :(

Happy Weekend =)

It's Sunday nite again!!! Pre-Monday blue? Ermm...not really, but still thinking if I should take MC tmr coz I'm down with rashes now & the itch is unbearable!!! But I can't afford a day of MC given the approaching deadline. Sigh... Why am I always so ill-fated? :S

Anyway, this weekend has been a gd one. Enjoyed my blading classes this week coz we learnt something new - A-frame turn!! It's not too tough, however, I always have the tendency to tilt my body whenever I do the turns. Haha... Also got to know 2 little sweet gals during blading class today, they are really cute! I wish I'm still a kid too! Haha~~

Yest was my 1st time attending a friend's wedding. Actually it's more like a glaxo mass gathering and catch-up session with my long-time-no-see friends! Haha.. Time flies! I've left the co for 2.5yrs already! It's really nice to meet up with the ex-colls, ex-sups & ex-bosses. Really miss the fun time I had back there 2.5yrs ago. But of course there were depressing times too! Still remb that I was known as the "cheapest labour" back then. Haha~~ Surprisingly, I was pretty close with the gang of students in SPT, especially bumble bee! Hhaa... Glad that til now we are still quite close, or infact closer than during our attachment time. Heez...Met up with my dearest ex-sup, Ah Prim! Hhaa...too bad didn't get to sit with her, must really meet up for a dinner soon! Joined PW group at Vivocity for movie after the dinner (or rather I ran off half-way thru! Haha.. Anyway, the crowd at my table was on some sian topics.. Haha). But missed my fav banquet dessert, YAM PASTE, & forgot about the cute wedding favour (yesh, I'm cheapo, so wad? Haha) :(

Today's a pretty busy day too! Bladed early this morning, then went for potluck at WL's house and met up with some friends in the evening for a bday celebration. So sorry that I didn't join in for the ktv session this afternoon,too tired. Only slept for 3-4hrs last nite. Haha~~

Overall, it's a great weekend! Okok...gotta get back into "working mode", it's Monday again!! =)

End of Long Hols & Start of NEW Project!

OMG!!! My 4 days of long weekend is gone!! Didn't do much stuff over this hols, was spending most of my time at home rotting & doing my Beijing report. However, find it a good break. Haha...doing nothing & bumming around can be quite recharging too! =)

Monday was my co's hol, so brought dad & mum, & also my niece out to Harbourfront for dim sum buffet. But then, bad timing for me! Wasn't feeling too well, so in the end didn't eat much dim sum. Luckily the 3 of them enjoyed the food there. Heez... It's been quite a while since I last brought my parents out, and this time round, it was a trip to the newly opened Vivocity!!! It was VERY crowded, even though it's a working day. I supposed many people have taken leave to enjoy the long weekend. Pa & Ma were amazed by the mega-size shopping mall. Find it just another shopping mall with the same few shops. Well, saw a few nice boutiques thou, wanna shop but pa & ma just walk and walk as if we are in a park not a shopping mall. Haha...Yah, they only window-shop, & I guess they are only interested in electrical appliances shops & hypermart. Ahaha... I find the stretch outside Vivocity very nice coz it gives a great view of Sentosa. Hmm...come to think of it, it has been donkey years since I last stepped into Sentosa. Hhaa

Basically I rotted at home for the whole of Hari Raya Puasa's morning & afternoon coz ktv session was postphoned and later my date with Kheng was cancelled as well. Sigh... But at least I managed to get my report going, but... still 50% more to go. Wahaha... The very least, I stepped into town in the evening to meet up with LLT for dinner & movie. Watched the Scoop, and Hugh Jackman is really charming leh. His smile can really make 1 melt! Ade, u love him too, rite? Then must catch the Scoop & The Prestige!! Heez...As for the female lead, Scarlett Johansson, she looks very plain to me at 1st, but the more I watched her in the show, the more I find her pretty. Haha

Started on my new proj already. Quite enjoy solo work now coz everything's within my own control. Still got quite abit of stuff to be done before bossy returns next week. So wish me luck!!!

Oh, weekend's coming again!!! Haha~~

50% of superlong weekend's gone!

Weekend just come & go so quickly!But luckily this is going to be a long weekend for me since tmr is my co's hol & Tuesday is Hari Raya Puasa. Yeah~~ =)

Well, didn't really do much for the last few days. Fri evening went out with Ade to get my contact lenses. But this stupid shop wanted to charge me 30 bucks more for "educating" me on proper lens care & stuff (coz it's my 1st time wearing. Haha). OMG!!! 30 bucks more leh! My lenses only cost 25 bucks per box after my staff discount, u know? I rather waste whole box of lenses on trying to put them on my eyes than paying 30 bucks for nothing. Yah, gal, I rather pay u the 30 bucks lor. Haha... So of course, in the end, we just walked off. So at the end of the day, I didn't buy a single thing while Ade spent almost 50 bucks on clothes! Wahaha... So happy to see others spending $$ leh.. Heez =p

Yesterday & today were spent blading at ECP. Yest's class was fun but today's was a little boring & didn't really learn any new techniques. But on both days, it was fun playing with Oscar. Heez... All thanks to LLT & family too! It's really nice to see that your family is so close =)

Oh yah, Ryan passed both his chemistry & physics!!! Happy for him & hope he continues to work hard. Yah, will deliver my promise to him, a treat! =)

Yah, better get my Beijing report going & gotta prepare some stuff for my new project too. One man show again, but I supposed this round wont be as bad as the previous one.

It's Friday!!!

It's Friday & long weekend's coming!! In fact, didn't really go into making much plans for this coming long weekend except for bringing my parents out on Monday. Haha~~ Too bad that sis & bro can't join us, so I'll be the only guide. Well, decided to bring pa & ma to the newly opened Vivocity! Sigh...but ma finds the place abit too far leh. She's so lazy!! Really dun want her to coop herself up at home most of the time. It's really scary to hear so many people committing suicide, u know? So no matter what, I'll still drag her out of the house that day. Haha =)

This morning had a confrontation again. I clearly know that this round it's indeed my fault thou. I shouldn't have peeped into his stuff. But sometimes I really dunno leh, is it that I didn't trust him enough? I used to trust him alot, the way he handles things, how he takes care of himself. But somehow, the trust seems to be lost in a way. Feel that trust is to be earned, not given. Seeing him to get so stressed over $$ issues upsets me too. Probably I shouldn't worry for him too much, afterall, he has grown up & I'm in no position to control him (don't want to control him either!). Just that with the freedom he's given, hope he's sensible enough to make the right decisions. Don't want him to regret in the future too.

Lately, heard & see alot of people ard me who are troubled by $$ issues too. Oh well, in fact, it's something that everyone thinks about everyday, rite? Haha... Yah, I think about $$ too!! There's definitely nothing wrong with that, afterall, it's $$ which makes the world goes round mah. Ahaha... To me $$ is definitely important, I want more $$ too!! Haha... But sometimes really feel sick of all these money-chase leh. Dunno if what I'm typing is still making sense now. Ahaha...
Anyway, heard that this guy frd has been liking this gal for many years already, but didn't dare to woo her coz he's not rich. I also understand the whole story behind why this gal want a rich bf lah. Ahaha... but then, this guy frd is really a nice guy leh. Felt abit sad for him, but at the same time, I understand the reason the gal has (maybe only partly thou..). Given another "case study" it really triggers me to ponder ,"Is bread more important or love?"

Nothing is absolute in this world, always need a gd balance of everything. But then, if i were to choose, which will I pick then? Hmmm... Hahah

Haze, Haze Go Away!!!

I wonder when will the sky clears? The haze is making everything seems so dull & gloomy and I really don't feel like doing anything outdoor. Every morning as I stare out of my windows, I thought I'm at Genting Highlands. Haha..except for the weather, of course! Yah, now I miss the bright clear sky as well as the sun so much! Sigh... I guess many of us have taken these things for granted all the while, rite?

Anyway, for the past week, everything was pretty well-paced. At work, I'm almost done with my old, draggy project, except that I still gotta tie up some loose ends. New project is still in the warming up stage, but really not used to the pace now & how smooth the new project runs (*cross fingers*). Yah, my friends & colleagues always say that I'm born to slave. Haha.. Is it really true then? Hmm... Anyway, looking forward to more challenges =) Well, other than my project, still got some stupid secondary tasks to deal with. Oh well, not that those tasks are tough or what, but I've some really uncooperative colleagues who are really pissing us off. But what to do?

Happened to come across this article in yesterday's recruit. It's about "Taiji-ing" @ work. Haha...a really interesting article. Yeah, I've already learnt how to "taiji" my work now, coz there's really an unfair distribution of some work. Or probably I should use the word "delegate", rite? Haha... sounds much better haha

This weekend was a relaxed one. Fri nite was spent with my dearest sis & bro makaning & chit-chatting. It's been such a long while since we 3 last went out for dinner. It was a great evening! Hope we can really do it more often, ok?

On Sat, I basically "nua" at home for the entire morning & afternoon. In fact I wanted to go for a jog & swim, but the haze just made me don't feel like it. Wanted to start on my Beijing report but in the end ... ... Hhaa...well, yah, too lazy lar. Sat still gotta do work?! So of course I chucked it aside! Haha.. Evening was spent with my JC clique to celebrate Sze's bday. Glad that she likes the present =) She even thought that the food hamper was pre-wrapped which in fact I'm the one doing all the purchasing & packaging. Heez... So my hamper wrapping skill is quite pro leh. =p
After dinner it's midnite movie with LLT @ Vivocity. Didn't find the place as fascinating as I thought thou. It's rather out of way too. But it was so packed with people even at 10+pm. I guess if ther'll still be this much crowd a few months later? Hmm...

At last we managed to start on our blading lesson today! It was fun but some steps abit stupid lar. Like learning the steps to fall. Coz I thought when u fall you'll just fall, will one have the time to think of & use the steps? Haha... After which got to meet Oscar. He's such a sweet & obedient boy! I guess he had quite abit of fun playing in the cold water today. Heez~~
It's such a tiring day for me, lack of sleep & all. Yet in the end I still met up with Ade for shopping & gossip session. Ahaha... Well, shopping part was kinda a "no choice" thingy, coz got 2 red bombs end of this month & mid next month & I need clothes for that. Being a gal is so troublesome leh. And definitely high maintenance cost. Hhaha

Monday's here again! Let's all hope it's a less bluey one & hope the air clears REALLY SOON! And..... LONG WEEKEND'S COMING!!!! =)


P.S. To LLT: Really happy to see that you got good opportunities coming. If it's a good one, seize it! Don't forget my treats after that hor. Wahaha =)

Feeling Better...BUT the Haze Came....

The weather really sucks now. Sigh... It's making me feel so sick and lethargic, to the extent that I'm having a headache now (well, not too sure if it's coz of the haze or the stress I've faced for the past wk. Haha~~) When will the haze clear? Now I can't jog, can't blade and can't swim and don't feel like staying outdoor. Sigh... I really can't stand it. I want the clear blue sky and the sun! The haze makes everything seems so gloomy leh... =(

Anyway, these few days not in much mood to do anything. Becoz of the haze or ...? Yesterday I decided to give most activities a miss. The b'dae BBQ, uni friends' gathering and ... Yah, tired and didn't feel like meeting people. Haha...Oh well, feeling better already, no worries. Quite a few things made me happy yesterday. It's such a coincidence that my new coll is actually my JC junior! well, not just that she's from my JC, she's from my junior class too. OMG!!! We were quite surprised. Well, yah, it's such a small small world! Haha~~ We were both shocked and found it unbelievable! Think we looked like 2 "siao cha bo" screaming in the middle of orchard road yesterday. *Malu* Haha!! Well, so now I've promised not to bully her her anymore. But hmm... she's way too cute already and I just couldn't stop making fun of her. Haha...

Yest was Ryan's b'dae. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, RYAN!!! Dropped him a sms and of course, I asked about his Chemistry paper. Guess what? He said that he's extremely confident that he'll be able to pass. I'm so happy for him! Really hope that he does well. =)

Yest's dinner was good too, not becoz of the food. But rahter, it's that there's people who understand how I feel now. Heez~~

Today I attended the 3hrs aerobic challenge with Ah Bao & Ping. It's fun but I think the haze just spoilt everything. Sigh...this year's challenge was not as fun as last year's thou but the goodie bag was very good (Ok, I know I'm cheapo... :( ) Fun time jumping, dancing, kicking. Lately I've been having this urge to dance leh. Haha... ANYONE?? Went to shop for Sze's present after that. Haha... got her something nice & interesting. Guess she'll like it. Hhaa... Still thinking what surprises we should give her on her b'dae. haha... *cheeky smile* It's always so nice organising b'dae celebrations for my good friends and giving them surprises. Haha... seeing that they are happy makes me happy too =)

Sigh...my headache still not gone yet, time for bed & hope it gets better tmr! =p

Another sad day?

Seems like I've been posting quite alot of sad, depressed blogs lately. Hmm...my life like quite negative recently, with so many problems arising in both work & personal. Haha...but no worries, friends. I'm coping well with the problems. Every problem is definitely a challenge for me but I've learnt to better cope with it each time. Also, it's such a big achievement when they get solved! Hahaa

Sorry to have caused some of you to worry for me yest when I kinda went MIA. Well, not really MIA thou, had a really bad & busy day yest, needed some time alone to think over some stuff. Was very tired too & in the end slept with my facial mask on my face! Wahaha...

Oh well, today's a mix of happy & sad things. Happy that 2 of the problems at work got solved and at last I'm seeing the results I wanted for my project. Hooray!!! Really happy, managed to get what I need in the nick of time (my deadline is tomorrow!!!). The NMR problem which scared everyone off was resolved as well. Heez...

Today I've also gone for my final lesson with Ryan. Dunno if I was too harsh on Tue to scold him and to come up with the decision to call it quit. Sigh...Today he seemed more focused on his studies, at least most of the questions I gave him he was able to solve quite well. In fact, I got a strong feeling that he'll pass his chemistry this time round. Hope he doesn't disappoint me. =) Was feeling abit sad at the end of the lesson. Haiz.. such mixed feelings. He always made me so angry & I always wanted to give up on him. Now that I'm the 1 calling it quit, but I felt quite sad and really can't quite bear to end the tuition. Afterall, I've been tutoring him for the past 2 years already, quite sad to part leh. =(

Haiz, I thought that I've already make things clear and more or less got them to understand and accept my ideas but then...Sigh...After living together for so many years, I feel that I'm still not being understood. So sad... To them I'm just a selfish person, who place my priorities above theirs. But I'm just being realistic and think in long term. I really dun want what happened 10 years back to happen again. Am I wrong to do so? Maybe.

Sigh.. So what if I'm a degree holder? Does my $$ just fall from the sky? Does it mean that I'm working less hard yet will get more $$ compared to others? I never said that I dun want to contribute, I just wish to seek for greater transparency and definitely a good discussion within the family before any decisions are being made. Yah, maybe I worry too much, things might not turn out as what I've thought afterall. Yesh, STAY POSITIVE!!! =)

I hate it!

Sometimes I really hate being an adult! Though I still feel like a kid deep inside me, I think the environment has made me "so adult" that many of my peers even commented that I'm quite mature for my age. Hmm... so is it a good or a bad thing?

Sigh...today's a bad day. Be it at work, tuition or at home. Work-wise, I'm still stuck with the same old cycle, but this will probably end next week. This means that I'll start on my new project next week, I HOPE!!! Don't know if I should feel happy or otherwise, coz it seems like my present project is a gone case already. Sigh.. Yah, all down the drain, so sad leh =( Anyway, I do look forward to the new project, with simplier chemistry (hopefully!!).

Today I really got so pissed with my tutee. Well, partly becoz of him attitude and partly becoz of some personal reasons. Well, received an unpleasant call just before the tuition & I kept thinking about the problem during the tuition lesson. At the same time my tutee triggered me, and I started lecturing him again. Sigh...I hate to do this, but I really cannot stand his attitude towards his studies when his Chemistry paper is on Friday. To this point, I really give up on him and requested to speak to his parents. Yah, after some 2+ years tutoring him, I've decided to call it quit. For his sake as well as for mine. I see no point in continuing with the tuition, it's a total waste of both of time and his parents $$. In fact, I almost wanted to scold his parents you know? I feel that his parents have somehow neglected him, which resulted in the way he is now. But I held myself back, coz I know that I was in no position to lecture them. All I did was to let them know their boy's problems and I left the rest to them.

Hmm...sigh, got some personal problems to settle. Really angry & also disappointed with what happened. Felt abit lost at this point. Sigh... No idea why things turned out this way. Just hope the problems will be resolved soon. =)

Busy Busy BUSY!

Last week was a busy week, & this week going to be one as well. When will my project come to an end?? It's still a BIG QUESTION MARK! I know that it gonna be soon, but just how soon will it be? Sigh... just feel that it's a waste of time & resources to drag it any further, yet bossy refuses to give up. Well, I can't bear to give up too, coz it means all my effort for the past few months will go down the drain. However, I don't quite agree with the way he handles the whole situation so far. Sigh... But what to do?

Well, abit regretted that I didn't go back to office last sat, some stuff happened today which was not so pleasant. Sigh.. but anyway, will still try to get things going & done before bossy returns. Wish me luck! =)

Ok, enough about work. Last weekend was a busy but rewarding weekend. Haha...Fri nite was again my fortnightly gym session, followed by a "treat" to watch "Johnny Tucker" (U got the tix for free still claim that you r treating me? *bleah* Wahaha). A funny show though, haha.. Sat was a planned day yet everything turned out so unplanned! Haha.. all my planned activities had somehow been canceled & in the end I splurged on an IPOD!!! Wahaha...all thanks to you. I only pyscho you to get 3 CDs but you psycho me to buy an ipod. *sob* Anyway, I've been wanting to buy, just hesitating. Haha...anyway, thanks for your advice & help in picking the stuff. I'm a gadget idiot lor. Haha.. But you seemed more excited than I do when i buy the ipod leh... Yah, coz it's my $$ not yours, rite? Haha... Quite happy to have gotten it, though now my pocket has a big hole now**. Ok, less shopping & going out on wkends! Hahah... =)


** Some clarification here. I'm not blaming YOU for the purchase, really. I wanna buy it lah, jz couldn't quite make up my mind. Haha... My pocket's hole can be stitched back, hopefully soon! Ahaha...Really appreciate your help in helping me decide on which ipod to get as well as checking the purchase for me. I can be quite blur 1 lor...Haha A BIG THANK YOU TO U! Hmm...as for your 80GB ipod, well, will do if you carry a pink handbag for me from now on til... ... HAHA =)


Sun & this evening was busy shopping & shopping & spent $161.80! Well, not my $$ thou, I'm just helping Ade to spend. Haha... Well, what you've spent is still peanuts compared to mine, rite? Haha... it's fun seeing her trying out the evening dress, so much so that I was so bo liao to try out a piece too. Quite like it, but no use for me at the moment. Haha... probably when one of you gals get married, let me be your bridemaid then I can wear that lar. Heez..

Tired..tmr gonna be a LONG LONG day.... =(

Fighting for our Rights but Disappointed....

Today I was made to represent the team (only me + RH in the team!) to fight for our rights coz I sat directly opposite him during lunch. Stupid RH! It's in fact she who feels so strongly about the arrangement while I'm pretty neutral about it. Yet she sat so far away from us & we ended up communicating to each other using sms! Haha...
Hmm...really think that I'm very easily pushed over, yah, & bad at saying 'No' to others. Got to admit that it's my weakness, so I'm so easily bullied hor. Sigh... :( Anyway, she feels that the arrangment was very unfair to us (actually there's so many things that's unfair now, especially to me!) & feels a strong need for us to voice out. But it wasn't easy for me to bring the group into that topic you know? Coz there's this "powerful" person sitting besides me who kept the "important" person opposite me occupied with other topics. What's more is that another "critical" person was sitting besides the "important" person opposite me. Ahaha...sounds complicated, rite? Ooopz! Take some time to digest! =)

Anyway, eventually, I managed to link up the topics & therefore brought up the matter to be discussed. Wahaha... think my talking skills improving liao! Heez.. However, sadly, the "important" person simply brushed me aside. Really disappointed & sad, coz he used to dote on us alot. Sigh... =( In other words, talking to him doesn't solve our problem either, yet we pinned so much hope. Haiz...

Actually, I wasn't feeling too strongly about the issue before today's lunch. But after the lunch, I really feel the unfairness & start to think about my future here. Well, this has also led me to come up with a decision on some matter which I've been hesitating about. So I would say that today was a disappointing day yet it gave me a clear direction of where I'll be heading. Hmm...hope I won't slack so much & start working towards that goal. Haha...

Another week of DEADlines...

Weekend's over & now I'm back to fight the solo war. So many deadlines to meet, another week of mission impossible! Haha... Well, hope that I can make miracles happen.

Had a well-spent weekend meeting up with quite a couple of friends. Had a really good chat with pig on sat over lunch. Started some character analysis stuff & we realised that we are so alike! Haha...yah, we feel that we are very rational ppl, where our brain rules rather than our heart. But most gals behave the other way round, where they are led by their heart. Hmm...so are we really man in a woman's body? AHaha.... But then, I also feel that sometimes I'm abit over-rational leh, & I think it's not very good, lacks flexibility when it comes to handling certain issues. Yah, should learn to "listen to my heart" more often. Haha...

But to my 2 dear friends, for ur problems, I dunno if my judgement is right. I hope that your judgements are right & mine's wrong. The final decision is still yours. =) Anyway, as your good friend, the most I can do is to offer you my advices, and definitely any other forms of support you need. Don't worry, no matter what happen I'll not walk out of you, ok? I'll definitely be around to support you, no matter what your decision is as I believe that you know what you are doing. =p

SIANZzzz...

Blogging @ office hour again. Well yah, I admit that I'm SKIVING!!! Ahaha... no lah, this is called fully utilise the time I have, coz I'm waiting for my reaction to be completed & I feel really SIAN now. OopZ! Thought I've just recharged myself, how come my battery is going flat again? I thought I'm an energizer battery? Haa haa... Gone case lah, this battery lifespan is depleting already... =(

Why so sian again? Coz my solo war starting next week, and the management is pushing pretty hard. Sigh...you don't give me manpower how can you expect me to achieve your goal by the deadline which they keep postphoning? I'm no octopus, don't have 8 legs leh. You might as well take my life bah... Haha.. Just felt that they are over-ambitious, to the extent that it's really unrealistic. But what can I do? Anyway, I've said, I'll do my best. Now on top of this project I still got a secondary task to do. Sigh... Anyway, now my attitude is, when it's time to work, I'll do my best & when it's time to knock off, I'll just go off. Ahaha... So bad of me =p

Now I just don't feel like doing anything, only wanna wait for lunch time... Heez

My Personality?

Tiring day, more & more problems start to surface for my project. Oh well, I should take them as challenges rather than problems, rite? Haha.. Tough war, but I guess it's be over soon. *Cross fingers*

Anyway, did an interesting personality test, with courtesy of LLT. Haha... There's also tonnes of other interesting tests available @ the website http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Thank You

Thanks alot! Felt alot better after telling you about it. But I've been feeling really guilty for not telling you much earlier. Thanks for not blaming me. Really appreciate it. Cheers to our friendship! =)

A simple, lazy Sunday...

It's a simply, lazy Sunday & I'm just out of my dreamland. Haha...seldom get the luxury to laze-all-I-want on a weekend! So tired today coz I only managed to sleep for some 2.5hrs last nite. All thanks to my sis, woke me up so early just to ask for the code to lock her luggage @ an hr where my brain "malfunctions"! =S Anyway, bon voyage to Lao Da & enjoy your trip to HK! =)

Anyway, got up early this morning to visit WL & her baby at hospital. CONGRATS to her & family! Yup, WL gave birth yesterday morning to a cute little gal, weighing 3.37kg. Haha... the parents are still deciding on the name now. Such a lovely gal! Hope WL & the baby girl stay strong & healthy :p

Ok, back-track to yesterday.
Quite packed with activities, infact, I managed to meet up with 3 friends separately on a single day. Haha... Started off my morning with a swim (yah, I need to build up my water confidence! =p). Think I might end up getting crippled in years to come. Dunno if it's coz I've strained my left thigh muscle or it's some old injury, after Fri nite's Cali session + swimming, my left leg started aching again. Well, the pain is kinda of on & off, & I can't exert too much pressure on my left leg. Luckily it hurts no more today. Haha...

Anyway, met up with Rain to watch 'Little Man'. Nearly missed the show coz there's a miscomm between Rain & I. But well, it was a very lame show as they kept repeating the same jokes. Anyway, nice to meet up with Rain. Gal, you beta dun drink so much leh, so bad for ur health. Just take things easy, ok? =)

Evening was a bellyblitz session with Qing at Amore. Haha...it was FUN! Yah, gotta shake d butt quite a bit, a very interesting class which both of us enjoyed very much. In the end still kana made to take a pic for MyPaper. OMG... Yah, if you are lucky to grab a copy of this free paper during the morning rush hr, check out next wk's issues, dunno which day thou. Haha..

Haha...still quite alive after all the activities yesterday, so decided to go ahead to catch midnite show. Wahaha...yah, watched 'The Host', it was rather funny than scary. A million times beta than 'Little Man', really worth a watch!

Ai yah, weekend's coming to an end again, ready for tmr's challenges? Hmm...

Beyond Words....

Thanks LLT for jioing me to the 'Forbidden City'! A really nice musical, with such close up view of Kit Chan. All I could say is that her singing was SUPERB!! =) Of course, the other cass were fantastic too, a very entertaining nite! Hmm...It has been quite a couple of years since I last watch a musical, still remember the last musical I watched was "lei yu" by Sharon Aw.

Well, today was another busy day @ work, and I've been informed that I'll still continue with my present project all by myself after the 21st this month. Hmm...to be happy or sad? I dunno leh.. Happy coz being able to work on the project alone means that bossy has a good level of confidence in me and it's also a chance for me to prove my worth. Sad coz I have already been working on this proj for 2 years already!!! Really wanna move on & work on new project. Haiz... anyway, no matter what, life has to go on, so will definitely stay optimistic! =)

Haha...WL's baby is about to due soon. She's so excited, so is Glad & I. Heez..
*Hmm...y r we excited too?!*

Guess what? Today WL let us feel her big tummy. Yup, with the little baby gal in her tummy, the feeling was really...umm...hard to describe! It simply feels like a balloon as I stroke it, and yah, a BIG BALLOON!! Hhaa...I could sense the joy & excitement in WL. A happy mother!!! I'm happy for her too, wish this pretty mummy-to-be and the cute-and-pretty baby good health! =p

Glad & I started talking about child-bearing. Haha...but both of us still can't imagine that one fine day we get married & have kids. Haha...at least to me it still seems quite far away. Haha....Hmm...lotz of funny thoughts going on now Wahaha...

Anyway, tmr's FRIDAY!!!! Haha...Happy weekend to all! =)

Tioman EXPEDITION!

I'm back from my Tioman trip! It was really fun and definitely exciting!!! A very different experince compared to my past overseas trips. Feeling so much more charged up now & hopefully I'm ever-ready to face the upcoming challenges. Haha~~

Well, we did 4 snorkels and a dive during our 4D3N "expedition"! Hmm...in fact, we only paid for 2 snorkel trips, while the other 2 snorkels were bonus trips with courtesy of this nicey Mr A. Haha... A "YAN YU"? Hmm... No idea, but we did exchange contacts. Mr A really took extra care of us during the snorkels and even picked seashells for us! Haha...Anyway, all thanks to him for making our stay in Tioman an enjoyable one. =)

Did a discovery scuba dive too. It was fun, a little scary though, coz unlike snorkelling, now we are going into the water rather than mere floating on water, and there's so many things to take note of. Furthermore, it was more like a crash course, only did the drill for once in the pool and out we went into the open sea. The equipment was really heavy too and I couldn't really walk with it on my back. Too bad, no time to take pics of us in the full dive equipment..Sigh..What a waste! Anyway, the great memory will forever stay with me. Haha...In the open sea, we were so scared that our oxygen supply would fall to zero. Haha.. Yup, Pig and I were holding on tightly to my divemaster's hands as our buoyancy control was lousy. The moment he let go of my hand, I could feel myself sinking! Ahaha... But it was really fun, and to think that we go down to 6.6m deep! So exciting!!! Hmm...think I should save up for diving course next year, but I need a buddy leh. Pig, will you please learn swimming soon and don't be so BLUR? Made me your NANNY throughout the trip hor.. =(

Haha...really a wonderful experince to be out in the sea, and coming so close to the marine life! Saw lots of interesting sea creatures!!! Cushion starfish, a 7-legged starfish, nemo, butterfly fish, angelfish, eels, sea cucumber, jellyfish, sea anemone, corals, sea urchins & a BLACK TIP SHARK! Oh My God!!! A really rewarding trip! It's a pity that we didn't have an underwater camera, to proof to show you guys..Haha...

So much fun & joy. A really memorable trip! Till now I can still feel myself like floating in the sea! Ahaha...

Hmmm...I'm gonna find a nice bottle to keep my seashells and of course, I'll hope to start my collection of sand and seashells from different beaches from now on. Heez~~ I'M NOW FULLY RECHARGED, ARE YOU?

Ok, ready for the next go! Planning for a Phuket trip next year, hopefully!Haha ~~ Anyone interested just register yourself with me, k? Heez~~

Ok, take care folks! ^0^

At last I got my Trip Tix =)

Yeah, finally I got my Tioman trip tix! Well, in fact, I've gone through lots of trouble before I secure these tix, hope the trip turned out well.

I was really irritated by this travel agent. Really dunno why I've been so down on luck lately. Did I step on some dog poo or whatever? Sigh... I'm never been a superstitious person, but the series of encounter with weirdos are really scaring me leh. What happened to my life?

Ok, back to this travel agent, I hope that today is the 3rd and last time that I'm seeing him.
A weird/scary fellow... -_-"
It all started on Monday, when he called me up to inform me that my trip tix are ready for collection. But when I went over to the travel agency on Monday evening, he claimed that the tix have yet been delivered to them. ARGGhhhhHHH... Didn't he tell me that very afternoon that my tix are ready to be picked up? Ok, nvm about that yet. The way he talked to me made me feel that it's more that pure good customer service. He actually remembered me (always address me as "Miss Cia") and could even comment that I've gotten tanner. Hello, that was only the 2nd time we met, the 1st time was some 3 wks ago when I went down to book my trip. Ok, that's fine, probably he's just trying to find topic and chat with his customer. Seeing that I've made a wasted trip down to Golden Mile, he felt apologetic and promised to deliver my tix to my place. Yah lor, I stay in AMK while he in Aljunied, yet he said it's ON THE WAY. OMG, I think even a 'non-geography' person would be able to read the MRT route and tell me that it's so NOT ON THE WAY, rite? Who knows, maybe he owns his own MRT train which can bypass all other stops, Aljunied ----> AMK. Wah seh! His private express train leh... Haa haa...

I really can't stand having things unsettled & hanging in midair! I called him up again yest to check on the status of my tix, and again, same answer, tix haven arrived. WAD?! Sigh...RH actually volunteered to go down & collect on my behalf after hearing my story. So I asked the agent to confirm whether I can collect the tix yest as my frd will be going down to pick it up for me. Guess what he said? "Why do you have to ask your friend to collect for you?" ArghhHH...IT'S REALLY NONE OF HIS BUSINESS! Must it be me going down personally to collect the tix? Then he said," Come down to collect and see me as well." He deserved a *BISH*! My goosepimples creeped up lor.. Sickening... There he promised to deliver the tix to AMK MRT for me today. At this point, I really think I need an ESCORT!

Haha...lucky/unlucky you, LLT. U have been selected for the task! HAHA...Ok lah, having to go through all those trouble tonite + waiting for me for an hr (partly my fault & Dou Sa Bia frd's fault, but mainly the train's fault =p), I know just that plate of fish & chip is not sufficient to thank you. Next time buy you Tip Top Curry Puff, k? Haha... But then you always made me wanna kill you, coz you always laugh at my "exciting" encounters -_-"

To Dao Sa Bia frd, thanks for ur dao sa bia. Oh yah, so from now on, the code I have for you is Dao Sa Bia frd or DSBF, a cool code, rite? Wahaha... Seems like our new favourite activity besides gossiping is EXCHANGING dao sa bia! Ahaha... Take care & enjoy your chalet! =p

Time to pack my luggage for my trip, lazy to do it though. Haha....getting my sun, sea and sand soon! I hope I won't be so suay again, hope I wont meet the agent at Tioman leh, I'm so scared now... Think I should bring a set of fork & knife for safety reason. Haha...Hope i wont have any probs crossing the custom again... WISH ME LOTZ OF LUCK!!! =)

Encounters with Weirdos?

I just can't believe my luck! I've been pretty "heng" these few days. Came across a couple of weird & siao people leh. Really don't understand, where did all my luck go to this year? Just these few days, I had some 5 encounters with weird people. OH MY GOD!!!

It all started on last Thursday when I was on my way to Expo to meet Rain for Comex fair. There's this 30+ chinese guy who boarded the train at Tanah Merah station. The moment he boarded the train, he began talking and then screaming to himself which is kinda scary. And he was standing so near to me.. Luckily I alighted a stop later.. Haha..

Sat we met this weird auntie on the bus. Actually i have already notice that she kept turning back to look at us during the journey, thought she knew me or something but I wasn't too bothered either. In the end, she started scolding us before she alighted! I can still remember her saying,"Next time don't talk so loudly, the person infront of you might not want to listen to your conversation!" I was pretty stunned by her reaction, coz we were not shouting or screaming on the bus, it was just my normal talking volume (maybe my friend talked too loudly! Haha)Pretty amusing...if we have disturbed her, she could have approached us at a much earlier time,. why only do it just before she alighted? I think she's too lonely, need someone to chat with her bah..

Sun & Sun meet 2 other siao pp doing funny things on the train. Haha...seriously, I think it's too much of a coincidence to meet so many weird people in <1 week!

Now I hope the weird/cheeky travel agent will really give me my trip tix tmr, I need my hols!!!

Spent my Weekend in "Confinement"

It's Monday again! Not a bad day, pretty busy with work as usual, but already feeling alot better & back to my usual self. All thanks to the 2 days of rest/MC last week! Getting back a little more drive to work as things appear more optimistic now & I'm already taking things more easily liao. =p

Oh, guess what? Today bossy told me that proj will be extended til 15 Sep! Haha... dunno to be sad or happy, for him & for me as well. Happy for him & I coz now we have more time to achieve our goal, & his head might be spared. Hhaa... Sad for me coz again, it dragged on & I really hate the dragginess! It's also sad for him coz I'll be going away soon... He got no choice but to release me lah, coz I've already given him chances, yet he kept insisting that there's no extension... Too bad liao...ahaha

But as things get better for my proj, other things happening around just not as expected. Sigh...but hope some of the changes will improve the present situation :)

Well, last sat & Sun really like staying in confinement coz I was stucked in ktv room on both days! Sat was great, ktv-ing wif Rain & gang for a good 5HRS!! Nearly lost my voice, 3ppl sang for 5hrs, really powerful, rite? All thanks to these 2 ktv queens, I'm not a ktv queen lor... Rain, u promised me some bird nest, rite? Hey, I want authentic 1 leh, not the 60 cents dunno wad bird nest drink from market's drink stall, k? Haha... Then dinner we went to our 'lao di fang', all the sweet memories started flowing back... Wah seh, Rain & I already know each other for 17 YEARS leh! It's really fate that we get in touch again after some 10yrs gap & we became closer than we used to. Remember the great times that we had playing zero-point after school, going to the playground for the swing after house practice! Haha... Lots of fun time then, and those happened some 10++ yrs back! Now we lao liao Hhaa...

Sun was again another activities-filled day. Started off with my usual workout, did kickboxing this round & now I'm suffering from muscle ache... :( But it was a great sweat-it-out session. Then went lunch before going to watch the final match. Great match, emerged as the champions again, congrats! After match, dinner and the KTV again, OMG!!! It's a fun bunch of people to be with but think I got claustrophobia leh, or rather I can't tahan sitting in a room, moving my mouth not my limbs for some 8hrs in 2 consecutive days. Yeah, I'll die! Sing til I wanna puke liao leh. Gal, me not as power as u to sing & sing yet wont feel sick of it. So this weekend I'm going back to my blading ground! Hhaa...

OK, hope it's a smooth-sailing week! Counting down to my hols...Heez =p

Yet another MC...

Blog at this hr, not in office coz I'm on MC! Yup, 2nd MC for the week. Haha... Down with gastric flu, but infact I feel pretty good now. Had a really bad flu in office yesterday, kept sneezing & nose got really runny, til the extent that my nose even started peeling from the constant rubbing. But the moment I stepped out of my office, the runny nose stopped. Haha..See, I say I'm too sick of work, it's really so true leh. The bug only bugged me in office, once I'm out of the place I'm ok. Haha...

Work & life have made me quite tired these few months. Deadlines @ work just kept dragging on and on that it becomes so sian to work already. Think it's going to drag again, from end August to Sep? I think that's sure to happen especially when we see some good results now. *So happy yet a little dreadful* Booked my hols so die die I will oso go away in Sep. Just don't like to have things hanging in mid air when I go hols, then come back got to look at those shit again. But still, looking forward to my recharging hols =p

As for my life, too overwhelming maybe, many things and issues to manage and all seem crashing down on me at this point in time. That's why I feel so stressed up and easily depressed lately bah, coz I've never been like that before leh. Yah, LLT, u r rite! I got many "interesting" friends, but all I asking for is just a simple life leh. Haha.. But of course I see this period of time as a very gd life experience, coz it definitely brings me a step closer to understanding people and facts of life. It has also made me a stronger person for sure. Really thanks to my fabulous friends who have been giving me support and encouragement all this while. Really glad to have you guys around! *MUACKS*

For the past 2 wks this uni classmate of mine has been trying to reach me. I've heard from many other classmates about how she likes to make use of people, so I'm extra wary of her liao. Expectedly, she actually saw the job ad for my co & wanna apply. Guess what? She asked if I know the person hiring (obviously it's my nicey big boss) and wanted me to pass her resume to him. Really KNS! She jz wanna make use of me to pull strings & get the job. My co's job application is so easy, a 5-min fill-in-the-blank questionaire & you can submit the application online lor. Smsed her that & I think she's not happy that I refused to help her. No reply from her then, not even a 'thank you'! So from this you can easily see what kind of person she is... I'm now praying hard that she won't get the job offer...

Realised that I've been spending alot of $$ on entertainment lately. Haha...OH GOSH!!! What happened? But I wasn't involved in retail therapy leh, thou I bought some clothes last sat. Haha...but I'm never a shopping person unless I see the need to buy something. But spent alot on food, movies, ktv, & hols! I'm getting more & more spendthrift! Hmm...is spending a good stress reliever? Or probably doing things together with good companions make me happier and it doesn't matter how much I spend. Isn't it a vicious cycle? U earn, spend, becomes happy and when you are happy you are motivated to work harder & earn more. Haha...

MC Granted!!

Silly me! Fell & hit my forehead yesterday afternoon, now got a big bulge liao :( This accident earned me an MC today. Haha...Yah, friends know that I've been dying for an MC for a long long time, at last I got it, not in the way I expected thou...Only expected some flu, cough or fever, not physical injuries..

Anyway, it's definitely a good rest day since I've been 'qiong-ing' late nites since Friday! Haha..

This is how I spend my MC day:

This morning got up around 7am leh. Sigh...my body's so used to my normal waking up hours already, want to sleep oso cannot get back into sleeping mode, so got up for breakfast and read my book, "Men r from Mars, Women r from Venus". Well, most of the points are pretty valid I think, the differences between men and women, their thinking and needs. A really interesting book =p

Went to see doc Quek at 10+am. He's so scared that the blood clot on my forehead will spread to my eyes and caused me to lose my sight. Luckily I can still see clearly, so only 1 day MC granted. But this is gd enuf. Heez~~ Came back, online to chat with some pals, den off I go to Northpoint to meet LLT for lunch. Another sinful lunch - KFC! All thanks to U lor.. I got 2 red bombs coming soon. Gotta start losing weight liao. Ahaha... Yah, think today u r more entertained by my "interesting stories", rite? But it's gd to hear your opinion of the incidents. Thanks alot! =) Didn't felt like going home after lunch, coz it's so rare that I can shop on a weekday afternoon leh! So I went jalan jalan at Northpoint. A small shopping mall with not much things leh, but I still managed to buy the soundtrack for 'Helen & the baby fox' which I wanted. Spent again!! :(

Gotta reached home before 3pm coz auntie promised to bring her 3 mths old puppy, Don Don over. It's shih tzu breed! Very cuteeee!!!! He has pretty long fringe which kept covering his eyes. Really feel like cutting off his fringe for him. Haha...just kidding lah. Took quite a couple of pix for Don Don, but he don't like to take pix. Likes to lick and bite me alot! Haha...so fun to have him around today. Gave him some food to eat & it kept following me! Haha..cute dog which don't feel comfortable peeing outside his home. But eventually, think he could not hold any longer, so he peed and pooed at my place. Haha...

Tmr going back to work liao... Haiz...so sian... :(

Feeling very angry with some stupid guy who has a filthy mouth and definitely a filthy mind. A CHEAP guy!!! Congrats to you! You are no longer considered as my friend, and off you go into my condemned list! U should be feeling really honoured as I have yet done this to anyone else except you.

This is definitely not the very first time that you are making me angry for saying disgusting things to me. Yesh, I utterly disgusted by your words! Don't blame me for being petty or not being able to take your so-called JOKES. If not for that I'm angry, will you say that you were just kidding? U kept saying that you are only talking cock, say but wont do anything. GOD KNOWS! It's your eyes and your brain/ brains (Guys are said to have 2 brains,remember?)! U are being so disrespectful to a gal, and yet you expect me to laugh it out, like "Haha..it's ok, continue with your silly & crude jokes, I can take it since we are GOOD friends!" I must be really out of mind then! Please lor, it's not about me having low tolerence for such jokes, it's definitely no joke to me. You better use your upper brain more often! All your R-rated and pervertness are pissing me off. How can I still keep such a disgusting and disrespectful friend? All I can say is that you are beyong hope! And you dare to claim that any other guys are just as disgusting as you. Oh please, you r the MOST disgusting guy that I've ever met. I think you deserve the "hard candy" way of treatment! *Haha*

Thanks for the past and I wish you all the best for your future endeavours. Hope you will not bother me in future.


P.S. Qing, please convey the above msg to your disgusting friend. I'm damn disgusted by him liao. To this point, no amount of apologies will help.

Grant Me an MC, Please!!!

What am I doing? Blogging at this hour when I'm supposed to be working?? I TERRIBLE NEED AN MC!! I dun want to work! Think I'm suffering from work phobia already! Probably I'll need to go IMH to get one... I've been expecting to get an MC since last Thursday, have been sneezing, though not too badly, have been eating heaty junky food. But I'm still in office now... :( Am I too healthy to fall sick? Y didn't I fall sick or feel at least abit sick to earn an MC for the day? I starting to sink back into depression mode again? Cannot!! Sigh...

U guys must be thinking that I'm going siao...Well, true, coz I dunno which direction I'm heading in for my work. Furthermore, bossy is not around and I need his advice. Sigh =( My paperwork is piling, and I can't quite be bother already. Ermm...still quite bothered, decided to lunch in for the week to clear them =( Besides the actual PJ, I still got other 'secondary tasks' to do... I NEED An ESCAPE!! Going nuts soon again.. Haiz...

I wanna take leave now, but I know I can't. I'm feeling so sian now. I wish I can take out my Sudoku game to play now. Thanks to my friend for the great gift! It seems like a good destresser or should say an escape from work for the moment! Haha... SOS... SOS...

Only 2 more weeks to go??

Another week spent searching for the "invisible needle" in the haystack! Sigh...not much findings, even with Glad joining my 'task force'. On the very 1st day she worked on my thing, she already realised its tediousness. WAH! At last someone truly understand my mental struggles for the past 2.5 months! Enuf about work, it's same boring stuff, stress & more stress, ambiguity & more ambiguity.

Wed was Nat Day, at last a public hol! Went out with my sec gals to catch a movie, den to TMC and a 'talk-it-out session'. I oso dunno what to talk it out. I know that problems exist in our friendship but these probalems are sadly, but definitely unavoidable. It's just part & parcel of life! I feel that as you grow and move on, you will meet different friends who'll be able to provide you with different support & needs at different time. Another growing up & learning process in life bah! Haha...
1st time to c 1 of the gals flared up, sorry to have upset you :(
This made me cold war with OLBF, banished him into the cold palace! Haha... Well, things are ok now, I'm not so petty, k? Just wanna him to realise that certain things he shouldn't interfere, and what's more, made me lose trust in him liao.
Not only me, everyone around me seems to be in a not-so-good mood lately. Hope it's not bcoz of my influence! Haha...

Haha...I've watched like 3 rounds of fireworks during this fireworks festival. So nice! But I think still like the ones at HK Disneyland the most, where the fireworks were at the sleeping beauty palace! =) Nice weekend catching up with friends & blading... Haha... But next wk 2 kakis going away...sigh...

Tmr work liao...wish me luck! =p

Such a short session! I want more!!!

Slept at almost 2am this morning yet got up at 6+am & can't get to sleep already. All my biological clock's fault! Now I still feel tired... Anyway, good to get up early on a Sat morning, no tuition... Heez.. But decided to give jogging & swimming a miss so that I can pack my room. Well, my mama has been nagging at me to do so :S

Feeling happier this weekend, or probably should say that certain things in life simply cannot be understood & are not within our means to control. So indeed, this stressful & depression period is really a good learning journey for me. Yesh! I'm getting back to my optimistic self! :)

Yest was 1 of the few times that I felt like OT-ing til midnite. Sounds crazy, rite? Coz there's this experimient that I was doing and I felt really anxious to c if it works. If it does, it means that my hardwork for the last 2 months have not gone to waste! But hp kept beeping & ringing coz I'm supposed to meet my gals at 6.30pm for a bdae celebration. And another group of pals going to get a blated bdae present for HD. Yet I was still in lab at that time! I wish I can split myself up into 3!! Anyway, I was too engrossed with my work then, din bother to reply or pick up the calls. Hha...Sorry pals..

Thou I often complain about my bossy, he's in fact a really sweet boss & definitely 1 whom I can be frank with. Ya, that's nice about working with ang mohs, they are more willing to accept comments, good and bad ones. Told bossy that I'm losing my motivation, it's like searching for a needle in the haystack. But in the 1st place, is there any needle in the haystack? Ahaha...DUNNO!!! Think should have, coz others have searched before. So y can't I find it?? Anyway, bossy remember my nice big bossy, oh yah, my so-called godfather, saying that he has to keep us smiling if not he'll be in deep trouble. Well, my big bossy dotes on us, especially since RH & I were trained by him personally. Bossy has been trying to keep me smiling, & asked RH to keep me smiling too (I asked RH to dance for me to make me smile & indeed she danced! Ahaha...*MUACKS*). Think these words r sufficient to keep me smiling & work on. Heez~~ Yah, bossy even stayed on to wait for me to finish up my work, he won't leave me alone I know. So I can't even stay til midnite or come back on weekend even if I wanted to. Thanks & I felt so blessed! :) I hope to see some good results on Mon!!!

Yah, I was pretty late for the bdae-ktv celebration, no time for dinner either so could only grab some bun & tu-tu kueh. Not very satisfying thou, coz lunch had a sandwich only (no time...). Anyway, it was a fun session, such a rare meetup with all 7 of us, but w/o sea cucumber, who's still MIA in Aust :(
Well, I'm now stepping down as an organiser for meetups, this round 'de has been tasked to organise, I jz wanna be a follower.. But in d end I still gotta step in hor, to settle d present. Y it always seem like only I know what my pals want? Sigh... Anyway, happy that Min loves the watch, & she had a really great evening yest, so did we. Evil 'de! Made me sing a duet alone, then I gotta jaga both male & female parts?! :'(
But it's such a short session, we got lotz of catchups to do but no time. Anyway, Cat said she'll fix the next gathering, hope it'll be some time real soon! =p

Wah, a really long entry today...but I'm just going to continue.. Haha...

Another happy thing is that 'de got the job which I recommended! Congrats, my dear!!! Now I got 2 new lunch kakis liao. Haha... So good! But hopefully I'll have the time to go out for lunch :)
'de's happy too (coz got eye candies THERE? haha) but can't bear to close down her Do-nothing-but-rot club. How can you be like that? Almost a year alr, u know? U know how much effort I've gone into searching jobs for u? So u beta work hard, at least for my Rochester treat next month. Haha.. No lah, I help u but don't ask for anything in return, so long as u r happy working, even a treat at hawker centre is good enough :)

Tired, just wanna a relax weekend now. Look forward to tmr's skating carnival! Cheerios~~




P.S. Wah, U r really my LLT! U know I'm in a better mood now, still stressed thou. Heez..

Am I incompetent?

Left 3.5 weeks, to the deadline & hopefully to my freedom not death day... Well, still struggling to stay afloat, stressed but no longer feeling depressed, no worries. Stress is definitely unavoidable at this point of the project. Tired, tired... But I'm disciplined not to take MC or leave til next month. Haha.. luckily next wednesday is PUBLIC HOLIDAY!! Hooray!!! Actually to me now, it means less 1 working day to finish my tasks. Sigh.. :( I've become such a workaholic now!

I really wonder why the things didn't work as we hope for. Is it that I'm incompetent or the things just don't work? I start to wonder if the problems lie with me. I feel so helpless and lonely fighting a almost solo war. Boss always tell me "NEVER GIVE UP'!
But he's going to abandon me for the next 2 weeks. ARGHHHhhh... I can't wait for this torturous period to be over soon!

Weekend's over soon ....

It's been a really busy weekend and I have not read my 941-page patent coz I simply refuse to plug my thumbdrive into my com... Wahaha...Thinking of work, I feel stressed and tired and I need a BREAK terribly!

This weekend started off with a good swim yesterday morning, felt so great after that, then went for my tuition and had a bad session again :( I didn't mean to lose my patience but at the rate that things are going, I'm really worried for my tutee. I'm worried that he might not be able to promote to sec 4, I'm worried about his future! Sigh... Recently my 2 tutees have shifted to a much bigger house, a 3-storey terrace house but they both don't seem happy about it. It appears that to them, a bigger house means more emptiness and loneliness, especially when there's no one else's at home. That's the sad part which many parents don't understand. They thought that by getting a much bigger house for the family, the kids will be happier, having more space to run about and to play around. However, they only consider the material needs of the kids but have neglected their emotional needs. Both my kids told me that they love their old houses, though it was smaller. They feel very lonely and are scared to be left alone in the big empty house. That's so sad! Parents nowadays are only focusing on the provision of their kids' material needs but have neglected their emotional needs. I really wonder what's going to happen to the future generations?

Anyway, tried another round of 'talking & counselling', hoping that I'll be able to help my boy. Really don't wish to see him retaining :(

Haha...bought new swim suit coz RSH having a discount. Wahaha...spent again :( Quite a busy morning then before meeting up with Rain. Brought her to TMC for boardgames and wanna make my contribution to the publicity of nbc. So sorry to LLT. Sorry that I didn't help much. Can understand the kind of pressure that you are under, where it seems like no one is doing his stuff and you are left all alone. It's a shitty feeling I know as I've been through that too. But don't give up, never! I know this coming month gonna be real tough for you, but you gotta hang on there & we are definitely all behind you. Time for me to loan my listening ears and my helping hands. But don't be so dao & unfriendly, pls... How can you follow my style? Haha.. I thought only I PMS when I'm stressed/depressed? Ahhaa

Yesterday evening was completed with a choco fondue, Muthu's curry & the midnite movie 'The fast & the furious Tokyo Drift'. A sinful and tiring day! Haha...but a worthy one coz Rain felt beta I think. Heez... Dear Rain, cheer up, k?

Today I was so tired coz gotta get up early to blade with my frds at ECP. In the end so sotong to have missed my busstop & gotta walk for a gd 30mins to reach ECP. But then, it was a good exercise after a sinful indulge last nite. Haha... had a gd time blading coz I din fall! My frd came down to join us for lunch coz he's real bored. Haha...in the end kana summon...Poor thing :( Went to Yee's house for a catch up after that. Haha...a real nice day but time passes so fast, tmr's Monday :(

Anyway, everyone JIA YOU,k? Hope my bad mood's not affecting people around me too much. (",)

I need a PERK UP!

It's weekend! But I'm neither feeling excited nor am I looking forward to it. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME AGAIN? PMS-ing? I'm feeling listless... I've turned down all my dates, coz I felt that I need a jog, something heart-pumping & will make me sweat in order to make me feel better. But I was quite sian and tired to the extent that I didn't feel like jogging either. ARGHHhh...nothing that I do now seems to perk me up. No food that I eat, no things that I buy seems to make me happy. How? I think I'm sinking into depression mode again and I hate myself for that now! Someone help me please!!!

My life seems scary to me now, so aimless. I feel like a walking corpse when I go to work everyday. Counting down to my deadline...left only 4 weeks and I'm still stuck with the 1st synthetic step when I got 5 steps to do :( I hate it! I don't detest failure but I hate uncertainty, vagueness... Boss has been pressurising me so much now! He's driving me mad!! I can feel my grey hair growing liao... If things not ready in 4 weeks time, he said his head gonna rolled down from the 8th to the ground floor of my office building. I guess before that happens he'll see my body on the ground floor... Wahaha...Die lar, I've brought back my 941-page long patent to read this weekend, & my report not even touched yet! BONKUS liao... :(

Life sucks so much now & I've never had such feelings before. I think the next time my friends see me will be at IMH....ahaha... Ok pals, no worries...I'm still smiling & laughing alot lately...so I'll be fine... =p

I just need to complain to people, do more crazy things and I think I'll feel better. Now I feel really miserable if I don't talk to people, don't go out with friends. Sigh...how can a sagi's life be so sad, huh?

Sigh...How I wish I can find a 'golden tortise', get married and everyday have hi-tea with my tai-tai kakis now -_-^ *My colls & I have been discussing alot about this lately* Wahaha.... Okok, time to wake up from this daydream!

After nearly 2 years in R&D, it's time for me consider if I should continue in this field. Frankly speaking, I love this workplace, be it the people or the job, tremendously. I like it coz it's almost political-free and my colls & I get along quite well. But I know that in the long run, I won't be able to go far in this field with just a degree. Ya lor, degree holders can only wash testtubes in R&D. Even a masters holder will just be a testtube washer supervisor. So sad, rite? Thinking if I should move into manufacturing or be out of this chemical field.. Sigh.. I enjoy the fun of chemistry, coz benchwork is so much more fun than desk-bound job! I seriously can't take desk-bound jobs coz I'll doze off for sure, just like what I often did in cinema. Wahaha... Many friends have also urged me to further my studies.. should I? But i dun want end up getting Permanent Head Damage (PhD), think it's already badly damaged enough by my present work stress... Haha...
Well, the main worry is that I think the 3-4 years of studentship might be quite tormenting for me. I'm terrified! Imagine staying in research lab form 8am-8pm, 6 days a week. Sunday will probably be a day spent at home reading journals? Crazy, rite? I scared my life will no longer be called a life if I do PhD. No entertainment, no friends, no play... I'll die... Anyway, still got at least a year to think things through, to decide the direction I wanna go in... :)

Special Thanks...

Just wanna say a big THANK YOU to you for listening to me and keeping me company, lost twin! U know who you are. Haha =p

A good day, starting afresh again!

I've been blogging quite oftenly lately coz I wasn't in much mood to talk to people, this is probably the best channel that I can keep my good friends informed about me. Heez...

No worries, after a short but nice swim yesterday, I'm already feeling alot better, mentally and physically =p
Will keep my pms-ing to a minimum, I promise. Ahaha... Well, swimming is really therapeutic for me, I love the quietness and serenity in the pool. It always help to clear my mind, relieve me from tiredness, be it mental or physical. Haha... So I'm feeling ok now, friends! :) But I still got 5 more weeks of stress at work, over my present project, hope I'll tide over this tough period of time. Must really JIA YOU!!! Maybe more frequent swims will do the trick! Ahahahaa

Yest supposed to meet my dear Missy for dinner. Longing to meet up with each other, especially when we are both stressed up & exhausted with work and personal life. But dear Missy is always so busy, that she had to call me during her 15-mins of toilet break yest evening... Poor gal :(
*I heard lots of flushing and washing going on in the background* Oppz...the details shall be sensored **** =)

Dear missy wasn't able to meet me for dinner yest nite, but I was ok with it, coz my stomach couldn't take it already... I was pathetically hungry & had started hunting for food at home when she called me. Haha... so hungry coz I only had 2 baos from my new lunch favourite, 7-11, yest. Sad leh, cold lunch.. I hate cold & lonely lunches now! I miss eating with my colls!!! Anyway, back to my conversation with dear Missy. Dear Missy was still not done with her stuff and it was too late to meet up for dinner, I know she's tired too. Well, stress and exhaustion have lowered our tolerence threshold by folds, so dear Missy is kinda worried that we'll end up pissing each other off. Wahhaha...I simply laughed it off and reassure dear Missy that it won't happen coz we are well aware of our low tolerence level now, we won't push above the limits lah. Dear Missy agreed, and we met up! =p

At 1st we already agreed to go Soup Spoon, but dear Missy wanna change to Bishan. After much pacification, she relented, and we met at cityhall as planned. Ahaha...coz I told her I've already thought of what soup to drink, so cannot disappoint me else I'll start PMSing! Haha.. But dear Missy abit blur oso, left things in office, so we met at cityhall yet gotta go back to Raffles Place to drink soup ^-^' We had a real great heart-to-heart talk, about anything, about our friendship, our understanding and our misunderstanding. Yup, our 13 years of friendship has already come such a long way! Really treasure this friendship, though at times it seems abit shaky, but I know now, we have a better understanding of each other. Wish that this sort understanding will extend to my other 2 "gang members". I'm definitely someone who treasure friendships dearly, and I hope that the friendship among us will stay strong ;)

Is there something wrong with my life now?

I dunno if it's that I've changed or things and people around me have changed lately. Or probably I should say that things and people around me have been this way all along, just that my recent high stress level has lowered my tolerence threshold towards people and things. Sigh... :(

My worries...lots of them... from helping my friend in securing a job, settling friends' friendship and relationship problems, consoling them, advise them, settle their disputes. Gotta make sure that my dear niece is doing ok and not going astray after her dropout, manage my family problems, counselling my tutee, and of all, MY WORK which is the main killer for now! There's so many things to do but so little time. And how about time for myself? Haha... Only sleep hours bah

Today I had a really good chat with Zhen, talked alot, mainly I talked though, and she listened. Feeling alot better after talking to her.
Heez.. Thanks so much for listening to my rubbish, my dear! she knows how tired I've been feeling lately, think it can be clearly seen from my big eyebags! Now my eyebags are already bigger than my eyes!!! So sad leh ;'(

True enough that many people said that I got many friends. But in fact, not many truely understand me I think. I really appreciate those who have been with me, supporting me, encouraging me and cheering me up during this period of time. Really a big THANK YOU to you guys!! I guess this is really the 1st time in my 23+ years to experience such serious depression, but it's also now that I truly realised who are the really great friends of mine.

To those whom I have somehow neglected during this period of time, I'm really sorry. I hope that I'll get back to my normal self ASAP! Cheers~~

To Someone who's so near yet so far away from us...

Had a great but tiring weekend meeting up with friends, celebrating b'dae & vsiting Chek Jawa. So I'm now like a walking corpse...

Today's the 100th day since my dearest aunt passed away, really miss her :'( Have been thinking of her these few days. All the fond memories of her just kept flowing back and I feel as though she's still around. No matter what, I know that life has to go on for all of us. I just hope that she is well & happy in the other world :)

Having last bit of energy to blog...

I'm tired, exhausted but feel like blogging/complaining abit about my life tonite! Thought that after a business-cum-leisure trip to Beijing/Hong Kong I'll feel more refreshed & recharged but I'm wrong. I think I'm feeling more tired than before my trip. Sigh... Now I think it's a luxury to enjoy a day rotting at home, without doing any other activities. Haha...

Sigh.. so many deadlines to meet for work, dunno if I'll be dead before I even meet the deadlines Ahaha...Tahan tahan... 1.5 months to go before my project ends. Yup,sadly, 1.5 months is not short leh & it's almost a one-man show for this project (that's me only!) Sigh..alrite, shouldn't be so negative!

"Always look on the bright side of life!" =p

What Have I done AGAIN?!

Sigh.. Think I've somehow, unknowingly, or I should say innocently upset/ made my friend angry. Really, not my fault what! I've told a couple of friends, guys & gals, they gave me the same answer," No worries, you not at fault!" Yeah, I felt truely relieved and glad that third-parties think I'm at no fault. But clear enough, her MSN nick has indicated that she's disappointed and upset coz I so-called "fly her aeroplane" by not joining her for an activity. In the 1st place, I DID NOT promise her anything. Really...How?? Sigh...this is not the 1st time that we have misunderstanding. But, it always turn out that it seems like my fault which I choose to differ(from her view only, coz no other people think I'm wrong leh). To salvage the friendship, I'm always the 1 who apologises. Thou i didn't feel it's my fault, especially this time round. I'm getting sick & tired of it. ARGHHHHHHHH

Monday...To feel blue or not?

Another tiring day, don't feel like doing anything but blog tonite, but I can't. Got a presentation next Tuesday, so gotta start preparing the slides tonite ;'( Yeah, gotta push myself a little harder!

Have been slacking,really slacking every since my Taipei trip. Haven't been jogging for a while, wanted to go for a jog this evening but have muscle ache all over my body now as a result of the gym workout yesterday. Yesterday I was pretty energetic leh, didn't feel like leaving the gym but zhen was tired, so we left. Anyway, we stayed there for some 2.5hrs by then. Haha... No wonder muscle ache today ;( Ok, gotta push myself to jog sometime this week =p

Yah, was talking about slacking, ya, not did I slack and not exercise, I've slacked at work and other stuff too. Strangely, somehow not much motivation to do things. Or have I lost the direction in life? Probably after nearly 1.5 years of working, this sort of life has became too monotonous or what. I wanna find out the reason too. What's wrong with me?? Ok, yah, looking for interesting stuff to spice up the boring work life. Hmm...I'm not saying that my work is boring, I still enjoy it alot. But somehow, lack of zest. Yah, I'm someone who gets bored easily! Haha.. There's actually lots of things out there which I wanna try. Like diving, blading, wakeboarding, rock climbing, kayaking, playing piano, learning languages. I'm a greedy gal too! heezz...

Ok, I should take a bath & start working on my presentation. Gotta give it the best shot!!! =p

Taken for Granted

Arghh!!! Network problem & I've lost the blog entry which I've just created. Now I gotta retype them ;'(

So I'm back with my latest entry. Not really an update on what I've been doing lately, but more of a means to vent my frustration lately. Yah, told my friends that I'm PMSing now! Haha...

Yesterday night I was chatting with some friends on MSN and I got pretty grouchy. Complained to them how I felt that I've been taken for granted. Sigh...not just @ work, with friends too... I simply think that these people are not sensitive enough to others' feelings, sometimes I also feel that they are abit too self-centred. They are only concerned with getting their things done, and along the way, mishandled the situation and ended up upsetting people around. As for me, I always (at least most of the time) have others' interest above my own's. I know that I can't expect everyone to do likewise, but all I'm asking for is some basic courtesy and mutual respect. Simple words like 'please', 'thank you' and 'sorry' will really make a big difference to others' live without you yourself realising it. Ya, these words do "play magic", such simple words yet so powerful I think.

If everyone's a little more thoughtful, sensitive and respectful, I guess there'll be much lesser conflicts among humans! =p

Re-evaluating Life...

The past few days have been pretty tiring, not just for me but for my entire family as we have to travel between AMK and Tampines to attend my aunt's wake. The entire religious procession was simple but everyone there was heavyhearted. I can't help but to think about what happens after death. Yup, probably a morbid topic to many, but it's definitely an unavoidable part of life that each of us got to go through, at least and at most once, isn't it? I even told my sis that I wonder how a person feel at the moment before he/she passes away, will the person feel anything after death? But then, I know that no one really has an answer for that since it's not possible for a dead to become alive again, or at least with the present level of medical technology.

How about all the religious procession then? Does it really help the dead? No one has the answer again, I guess. Anyway, I think this is the best that the livings can do for the dead, at least according to chinese beliefs, it helps to peace the soul.

Having to come so close to a funeral procession again (the last one which I really attended was my gandma's funeral, some 14 years ago!) serves as a wake-up call for me and my family that strong family bonds and having quality family time are really important. It'll be too late if you only realise it after the person is gone.

In the last few days, I've noted how much my aunts and uncles have aged these years. And yup, my parents too. Especially my mama. She has worked so hard to keep the family tidy and organised (not my room thou! Hhaa...But I only have myself & sis to blame ;( )and to help out at my dad's stall. I can see wrinkles and tiredness on her face ;'( I would want my family, especially my parents, to be happier and stress-free!

Part of Life!

I've been telling people that this is a bad year, I mean it's a bad year for me. At least it's true for the last few months! Really 范了太岁？

First, it started off with a fever and bad cough during Chinese New Year, and it lasted for quite a while. Next suay thing which I can remember was probably my Taipei trip. A really nice trip except the part where I got rashes. Til now I'm still clueless as to which bug bite me! The rashes then went off and came back again after I stopped taking my medicine. ArghHH...but luckily it went off *for good, I hope!* after Mama made me some herbal tea. Mama's always the best doctor! haha~~

Still recovering from the shock that I've gotten last nite. My favourite aunt has just passed away last nite. Really sad, but I didn't cry. Can't remember when was the last time I cried, probably quite a while ago. My aunt's a very nice and friendly person. In fact, she had helped my family tremendously some years ago when my dad met with an accident. She would come over to my place to visit my dad as well as bring my dad to hospital for checkups together with my mum when she stayed in the east while we stay in the north. Unfortunately, the killer cervix cancer has taken her life. I've yet attended her wake, but I guess my tears will flow when I go.

Her departure was really sudden. Though I knew of her illness quite some time ago, I've also heard from my parents that her conditions had improved. Didn't know that it deteriorated again. Sigh.. Life's so unpredictable. Treasure your love ones, treat them well, show your love for them before it's too late. Papa's birthday's on this weekend. I really hope that he'll feel better by then. ;-)

Back from Taipei!! But I'm so unlucky! ;'(

Hey all, I'm back from my 8 days of eating, walking & eating in Taipei. The trip was fun! I'll update more on my trip when I'm more free. Still trying to sort out the 1000 over pieces of pictures we took. Tough task!!

These 2 days I got lots of time to do the sorting out of stuff and unpacking of my luggage. Not that I'm still on leave, but it's that I'm on 2 days of MC!! Don't know to rejoice over it or feel sad. But I'm definitely depressed whenever I look at my left arm. It's no different from an elephant's leg now coz it's so swollen and covered with rashes as compared with my right arm.

My Taipei trip was really good but I simply couldn't wait to fly back to Singapore coz the itchness on my left shoulder and arm is torturous and I couldn't wait to see a doctor. Afterall, on a foreign land, I'm not used to visiting the doctors in Taipei and would rather withstand the itchness & discomfort for a week before I can fly back to see the doctor in Sg. So my rashes just spreaded, from a small patch to the entire arm. It's scary manz!!! Howver, my plane only managed to touch down in Sg on Wednesday night, which means that I have to endure another night of agony before I can see the doc. This is the 1st time that I simply can't wait to see my doc. Haha...

Well, the doc was shocked to see my swollen left arm. So obvious! *But at 1st I thought it's because I've eaten too much in Taipei & has gained weight! Stupid me!!!* He suspected that I was biten by some insect or whatever creature, which then resulted in allergic reactions. Think that my skin's getting more sensitive ever since I started working as a chemist. Sigh.. I guess I got to make some plans to switch line or something ;-( The doc prescribed some strong antifungal cream and tablets for me. But if it still doesn't recover by tmr, I gotta go back for a jab. Haiz... as I'm typing now, I can really feel the itchness!! Waana scratch but can't, if not will have scars ;'(

So depressed now...hope I can be back to work by Monday.

Survival of the Fittest

Hooray!!! The crazy days of purification were finally over, at least for the moment. I've been working like nuts, doing OTs everyday, since last week, and at last, I've managed to clear all my reactions and paperwork. =p Yup, I know that work is endless, but this time round it's really a tough war to fight. And soon after I'm back from my Taipei trip, which begins tomorrow, I'll embarked on my new project and and at the same time clear up my old one. Life's getting tougher and tougher... But who cares?? Let me enjoy my next 8 days of stressful, fun-filled time in Taipei. YEAH YEAH!!! More updates when I'm back then Stay tuned!!! ;-)

Me!!!

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我快崩溃了

The work these 2 weeks, this week especially, is driving me nuts. I've been working from 8+am til 7+pm almost everyday and my stuff are giving me lots of trouble. Damn. 我快疯了!!! I'm really exhausted, not so much physically but rather mentally. This seems to be the worst period in my 1.5 years on this job. Everything just doesn't seem to go the way I wanted. Sigh... 为什麽？I felt so demoralised, so incompetent. But luckily, things have turned for the better today. 我好开心！我终于 meet 了我的 deadline! Really got a great sense of achievement today!! Yoho!!!! Probably this is the realistic life of a researcher. Many failures, which are indeed very demoralising. But a single success is good enough to make up for all the sufferings and tortures undergone. Haha... I'm so happy & proud of myself today. 加油！！

I can't wait, I can't wait!!! 多六天就能飞往台北杜加了。I'm so excited!! But there's lots of things unsettled due to my busyness & lazyness. Haha..

Shopping Therapy...

Sigh, my previous blog entry was the first one that I've attempted to write in mandarin but it all turned out to be some arabic words. Sigh...I've spent so much time doing it, earned so many dark circles. Sad...Who knows how to solve it??

Anyway, past week has been stressful, I guess this coming week gonna be even more hectic. The deadline for my sample submission is 15th yet I'm still a step away from it. The final step is a tedious purification! Sigh...so gonna have packed lunches and OTs for next week. God bless! Praying hard that I get the quantity I need (*I consider myself as a free thinker thou, so which god should I pray to??!!*)

Today has been a pretty "rushy" day. My journey: YCK ->Yishun ->Toa Payoh -> Orchard -> YCK. Went Yishun for my 3 hours straight tuition, then Toa Payoh to collect my new nerdy specs (but I like it!! And I only paid $48 for that!! haha...good bargain!!), then Orchard for some trial service and some shopping before heading home. Thou the tuition classes last for 3 hours, it was fun! I enjoyed tutoring this family - the young sec 1 gal and her mama. It was really interesting to teach the mama mandarin. Heez.. Probably I should switch job to become a tutor instead. Haha... Wait long long bah, definitely not now....maybe many years later!
I think I've spent really alot recently. So stressed up that I've been on a shopping & spending therapy these few days. Bought specs, clothes, bag, shoes. Spent 30 bucks for dinner yesterday. WAH!!! So sinful, especially when I'm going Taiwan soon. Okok....gotta tone down liao, so packed lunches for next week should help me tone down on my spending. Less entertainment. Shall spend my subsequent weekends nuaing / msn at home (since it's free!!! Or at least I'm not paying for the water & electric bill mah. Only paying for the broadband, which gives unlimited access!!! Muahahah)

Self control, SELF CONTROL!!!!

心烦的日子

她：“你寂寞吗？”

我心想：这句话好熟悉，好像在哪儿听过。哦，对了！这不是那些1900热线爱用的开头语吗？ 别误会！我可不是拨了那热线。Ah Von 一大早就问了我这个问题。

我：人难免会有感到寂寞的时候。尤其是当你发现周围的人都 attached了，而你却独自一个人的时候，这种感觉就更强烈。

我反问她：“你很寂寞吗？还不快去找个伴？”
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在上班的路上，我边看Today,边想：Ah Von 也不小了。是时候找个伴了。总觉得她近来有些心烦。或许是工作压力还有刚生了一场病吧，心情似乎不是很好。 Haiz,其实我也好不到哪儿去。近来因工作的deadlines一个接着一个地来，上头又逼得比较紧，so 蛮 stressed 的。这也造成了我的脾气变得比较暴躁，胃口也变得不好。 有时也想：难道找个伴就不寂寞了吗？无论如何，我不希望自己为了要填补空虚或寂寞而找个伴。这对我，对我或对他都是不公平的。*Sounds so novel,yah?* Haha... 我也不希望因为 peer pressure 而随随便便地找一个伴。这只会搞得自己不开心，更糟的是害人害己啊。 不知道为何，近来朋友总爱 set me up. 我总是被带去一些聚会，有介绍一些男生给我认识。令我觉得他们要把我给“卖掉" 似的。我知道我已经23岁了，虽然说小也不小了，但也不老啊？Why is it that 他们比我还急呢？真是好笑。我知道他们是因为关心我才这麽做的，但是这会被误会成我很 desperate 的。;'( 对于感情，我相信缘分。或许是过去的经历，也可能是缘分未到吧，我对感情事是看得很开的。就算是“孤苦伶仃”地过下半辈子，我也不觉得有太大的问题。或许是我的个性较独立 （有人叫这“孤僻”！ Haha）, 有时爱独来独往，但也觉得蛮快乐的。所以，朋友们，不要为我担心，我并没有对人生，ok, 还有男人，放弃。Wahaha.... 只不过至少在这个时候，这还不是在我人生最重要的事吧。

Over-reaction

The weather is getting hotter and more humid these days. The same goes for my mood and blood pressure - kept rising. Probably the hot weather does contribute a little to these, but I guess it's the stress that I'm facing both at work and in private. Too many things are running, and probably in all directions, making me quite frustrated. I've became very quarrelsome and easily agitated too. Probably PMS, or menopause??!!

I know that gives me no reason to over-react and get angry over a small issue. As a result, I felt really bad after the incident and did not sleep well last nite coz I know that I've frightened my friend tremendously. So sorry about it. But rest assured that our 13 years of friendship is definitely not so fragile and I can hardly tahan to be angry fro >24hrs. That's so bad for health,isn't it? Already getting old, how can I speed up the rate of ageing?

Went for my dental appointment today. Now the rubber rings have been changed from purple to blue. Haha... at first the dentist's assistant offered me pink (ya, not again!), which my colleagues say the colour sucks! I asked her to get me another colour and she got me dark blue. Not bad, still like the purple ones thou. Saw the light pink ones,shall try those next time. Haha...

2 more weeks to the end of my agony as I should be finishing up my project by then. Hate upscaling, boring & tedious! 2 more weeks to Taiwan trip too! HOORAY!!!

Nothing better to do so try this out. Pretty true leh. ;-)

Your Five Variable Love Profile
Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is low.You've probably either had only one relationship..Or all of your relationships have been very similar.You still have a lot to learn... and a lot to try!

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.You know a relationship is not about getting your way.And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is medium.You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.

Independence:

Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.